Larry Stylinson-We Accept The Love We Think We Deserve

chapter 4

Louis' POV

It's 8,30 and I'm too nervous. 

El has gone working and left me saying that everything will be fine.

Easy to say,huh?

But I'm scared..it could be my only chance to have him back like before.

And yesterday night I've been stupid being cold to him..but today is another day,isn't it?

Just breath louis.

Now I'm walking to his apartment because I wanna be perfectly in time.

Jesus,I need to calm down.

I haven't told the other boys about the call and that I'm gonna talk to him even though they would have come as well and I don't want to.

I wanna be alone with him.

And now I'm in front of his door.

I knock and Harry shouts "I'm cooooming!!!" 

He opens the door and here he is.

He's shirtless! It shouldn't be allowed in the world! Too many perfect things to see at the same time.

Shit.I wasn't ready for this.

I clear my throat and i say "Is it too early?" He smiles and I think nothing could ever be that beautiful in the world.

"No,you're definitely in time! It's just me late as always" he says playfully.

I enter and we seat on the couch in the living room.

"Well.." He says looking at me "how are you Lou? I mean,how do you feel for real in these days?"

I look straight in his eyes "I should've asked you that before because of you and taylor but anyways, I feel confused actually. Oh,and sad at the same time,it's just like a kind of mix"

Wohoo Louis the brave is heree people!

"What do you mean with sad and confused? What is it about?" He says carefully.

"You already know that.. It's about you and the boys of course,we can't be the same without you. It just feels like something is missing when you're not around" I sigh.

I close my eyes looking at the ground and suddenly I feel two arms around me,hugging me thightly.

"That won't ever happen again Boo,I promise" he whispers in my hear.

I shiver as he touches me and pronounces those words.

"I missed you so bad Haz"

"I missed you even more Lou"

...

We're cuddling just like we used to and everything seems so perfect when suddenly someone knocks at the door. 

Harry opens it and there's Nick with a embarassed face because of my presence.

Obviously it was him,what was I expecting? But as I promised to myself,I'm gonna keep calm and just act like I find him a good lad.

At least for today.

"Uhm hey harry I left my t-shirt here tonight so I just came here to take it back but maybe I'm interrupting something I don't know" nick says.

"Go take it,no problem mate" harry answers politely.

I force a smile on my face and quickly follow Harry in the kitchen while Nick is going upstairs in Harry's room,I think.

"So he left his t'shirt here,huh?why that? What happened?" Jesus,LOUUU!! Stop it noooww!

Harry laughs "awe Boo I didn't remember you were that protective..and jealous! But it's kind of cute actually" he says as a little smirk appears on his face.

I blush "I'm not jealous you fool! And not even protective,just curious" 

"Oh yes sure of course!!" Haz says as he keep laughing and holy crap let me say he's sexy.

"Now stahp teasing me! I'm swag mastah from doncastah no one can tease meee! Muahaha" i say with a stupid voice.

"Ya and I'm harry and I work a bakery.very funny swag mastah from doncastah" he raises his eyebrows.

I start punching him playfully and we end up cuddling.

Yes,again.

And then Nick appears in the kitchen door saying "finally I found it! Thanks guys,I'm going now I'll see you"

We greet him and then I think we're just gonna chill together.

Harry suddenly says with his deep voice "you know i feel half empty it's been a bit now and I don't know what's missing. I mean we could have anything in the world.. It's just something is really missing" 

"Don't worry haz,it happens sometimes,we'll find out what it is,and we're gonna work on it together" I try to reassure him.

He kisses me on my cheeks and says "You're the best Lou" 

I answer laughing a little "i know sweetcheeks"

Not really sure how to feel about the butterflies in my stomach.

It's going to be hard.