We Lost The Summer | yeongyu

six

TW: abuse

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3rd person POV

"oh..hi soobin"
beomgyu formed his lips in a thin line
then released it in a deep sigh

"what are you doing here?" beomgyu forced a bright smile

"oh yeonjun invited me over to spend the night! you live around here?" soobin exclaimed

"uh yeah..right across from yeonjuns house, and, oh well what a surprise I've never seen yeonjun invite someone to spend the night? what a first..!"
beomgyu started to dribble the soccer ball with his feet

"wow really?"
soobin glanced a yeonjun who was just staring at beomgyu with eyebrows furrowed

"mm yeah..."
beomgyu hummed and continued dribbling the ball

an awkward silence between them filled the outdoors.
i small amount of crickets and a waterfall being the only source of sound.

"hey think fast!"

"hu-"

in a span of three seconds soobin was on the ground covering his right eye as he tried to form his own words

"BEOMGYU WHAT THE FUCK?!"
yeonjun shouted at beomgyu as he knelt down to soobin. cupping soobins face and telling him if he was okay

"jesus are you okay bin? here let me see your eye.
beomgyu what the hell is wrong with you??"

"yeonjun it's fine..he didn't mean it. please calm down."
soobin tried to calm yeonjun down.

"fuck..i'm sorry"
beomgyu just stood there hovering over the two. tears formed in his eyes, was it really his fault? or was it jealousy that deranged him?

"i'm sorry, i'm really sorry, oh my god..i'm sorry." beomgyu ran towards his house as to not be seen crying over his own terrible actions.

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beomgyu POV

crying.
crying the whole night..
pathetic.
because why?
i felt bad.
im such a horrible person.
i don't deserve love.
it's my fault.
it's all my fault.
all i ever do is cause problems for others.
im crazy.

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(2:57 am)

"fuck..i'm starving."
i walked downstairs and into the kitchen.
i haven't eaten a thing since yesterday.
i'm craving donuts..or cookies, mm yum~
wait..what is that?

"am i seeing things?"
i whispered and stared closely at figure on the couch.
shit.

"beomgyu is that you?"
a deep raspy voice called out from the dark.

"yes father.."
i swallowed a lump in my throat.
geez i felt nauseous

"come over here."

"yes sir." i slowly walked towards my father. the stench of alcohol filled my nose. i tried my best to not gag over the unpleasant smell

"do you have any idea what it's like to be in a relationship?"

"no..sir."
what is he talking about?