"𝐓𝐨𝐨 𝐠𝐨𝐨𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞 𝐓𝐫𝐮𝐞" (Veneer x reader)

"I Don't Know What's True Anymore.." Chapter 20

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"I'm not sure anymore.."

- Reader.    

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You started panicking when you saw them, the visitors eyes were all on you with worried & concerned eyes you stared deeply into them and fainted. As you opened your eyes you were back again, turns out it was just another bad dream you punch yourself not knowing what has gotten into you, questions in your head were remained unanswered not knowing how to avoid dreaming about hospitals and people. This was only a YOU problem, you only kept it to yourself not letting anyone get involved with your weird situation since it was unsolvable even if you knew that you can't solve it you still tried to find out why you're thinking about these stuff. You shake your head and just ignored it as usual but this time you can't shake it off now..you realized not everything needs to be shaked off you now start thinking "What if it was all real..?" You sigh and starting to get stressed out as Veneer saw you getting all worked up and sits next to you on the side of the bed.

"What's wrong babe? Anything you have in mind?"

He looks up to you with worried eyes his hands were slowly gently lifting your chin up so that you could look up at him. You stayed quiet for a while not sure if you want to say your situation right now to the love of your life, you didn't wanna lie but you didn't wanna tell the truth either. A sigh of breath came out of your mouth as you lie to him about what you were thinking about.

"U-uh..I haven't fed the cat around the house for weeks now..and..it died right Infront of my face..I..buried it and I started stressing out."

Your lie was actually true though but still you didn't say what's really into your mind right now as if it was just really yours to keep and not to tell others you worry about Veneer if he gets involved with the situation you are in right now you'll get concerned and you might overthink about it on what if he gets hurt if he gets involved? You really had no choice but to just choose to not tell how you are feeling. Veneer looks at you and hugs you to make you feel some comfort, he can feel your smile in within his chest and hugged you even more tighter so that you couldn't stress even more about your "cat dying" he comforted you for hours as a good boyfriend he is.

As the comforting ends with a kiss you smile at him saying that you feel better now that he comforted you for almost 4 hours you snuggled up against him although you didn't want to sleep because you're would have nightmares about those.. stuff again.. you didn't want that so you just get up with him and get something to eat at the kitchen downstairs but it kind looks like he prepared food for you already and gave you a bowl of mushroom soup. Oh Veneer, he never forgets on how much you love him for making you feel better by cooking food on such a stressful person like you. Your smile brings a charm to him as he takes a spoon out feeding you the mushroom soup when you tasted his cooking your eyes always shimmers tasting how good his cooking is, you can't help but compliment his hidden talent and his cooking as if he's the housewife of the house of yours. He chuckled softly and says you are welcome appreciating your comment on his talent, he kisses your cheek and lets you eat for a while.

As you finished eating and cleaned the plates, you went to your room opening your cabinets trying to find some tapes of you and Veneer but as you reached up & above you started getting flashed by a glance seeing a familiar tape. Everything goes blurry as your vision started to fade and alot of whispers are telling you to wake up you fell off and failed on what you were reaching out on. You woke up on the same hospital bed again but there was no people, you get and walked around opening the room as your curiosity went high you started looking at a mirror somewhere around the room..you saw your face and collapsed then you wake up in your room thinking it was just another nightmare breathing heavily.

"Why does this keep repeating..? I-.."

You breathe slowly trying to calm yourself down not sure on what to do next. You don't even know if everything was real anymore you keep waking up on the same nightmare that you have always found weird, you looked at your hands and started tearing up due to all the build up of stress that has been going on up your head. You are not sure if you were real anymore..if..if.. Veneer was real, the world was real you don't know. As if all of this were..Too Good To Be True.. you hug your legs and just went downstairs to check on Veneer & Velvet but when you came down, you saw them and went to them closely your eyes widened in fear you saw their faces were emerged and mixed you panicked at woke up in your room again. Something was wrong you keep waking up on a nightmare, you kicked open your door and saw that everything was normal again a sigh of relief you breathe out that everything was all fine..for now.. but it was only the beginning..

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This went on for weeks..

You're feeling nauseous everyday, mostly you can't even feel Veneer anymore because of the amount of times of waking up then collapsing. You just want him back..you wanted to try to get out of this messed up place of nightmares begging yourself to stop dreaming about these. You kept waking up in a dream then waking up in another dream over and over again you were getting sick of it you just wanted it to end, although it was pretty much of an never-ending place of nightmares. That will always torture you by making you fear that it will always be a never-lasting dream.

This wasn't usual before, but it is now  as you got used to it getting all over you. Not knowing how to stop this madness without asking for anyone's help at all, due to their safety as you all want them to be safe as possible.you kept it all and didn't tell anyone and it became your habit of keeping things from people making them think you have trust issues but you were only keeping because you want them to not get involved. But for now you must wonder on when will it stop bothering your dreams and mind.
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