"𝐓𝐨𝐨 𝐠𝐨𝐨𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞 𝐓𝐫𝐮𝐞" (Veneer x reader)

"I Just Want You Back" Chapter 21

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"Will I ever see him again..?"

- Reader.
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This went on and on till you get sick of it, you can't even talk to him anymore. Veneer noticed this and wanted to talk with you but he has always found you laying down on the floor sleeping, he had always thought you were just tired but it turns out you just pass out everytime you get some weird flashbacks..but this time you now actually tell him about what has been going on with your head and why you're not talking to him anymore so that he does not say that you are avoiding him. You waited for the right time to have a talk with him about your problem right now, you didn't want to lie to him anymore and decided to tell the truth. You went to his front room door knocking on it, as he opens the door his face lighten up as you finally talked to him after not having any contact for weeks now. He lets you in his room sitting down on his bed patting his side signaling you to sit down next to him, you smiled and walked all the way to his side  sitting beside him. You didn't want to be that straight forward so you just went ahead and asked how he has been, and the good thing is you finally had a time where you didn't pass out and have nightmares of weird stuff again. He replied to you with a smile saying that he has been doing okay for the rest of the week lately and also asked on how were you holding your hand gently squeezing it to reassure you since he can sense that you're nervous, but when he noticed this he suddenly cut you off by saying.

"Honey, what's wrong? Need to tell me something hm?"

You sigh and nodded, not knowing how you were gonna put up to this. The nervousness is taking over you, your hands were shaking and you were shivering. Veneer caressed your hands trying to reassure you saying that it's okay if I don't want to say it to him even though you really have to tell him but you can't seem to spill it out due to keeping this from him for ALOT of weeks now. You thought he will get mad at you for keeping it from him, your anxiety is going up as you started sweating not seeming to peep a word out of your mouth you've got it all on your head but you couldn't pour it out. Your mind started saying "Are you just gonna keep ut all to yourself?" And some negative stuff "If you tell him.. he'll be mad at you" you didn't want to her those words as you finally said what has been going on your head. You open your mouth and say.

"Actually.. I'm here to talk about something..something that has been keeping me away from talking to you. So you see I..have these bad dreams of hospitals a-and..doctors I kept falling and..falling you.. I..-"

You stopped talking in the middle of your sentence as he looks at you with a worried look wanting to know more bout those dreams that you were having and was really desperate to know if you were actually okay or not which is obvious that you aren't. He reassured you by stroking your cheek at he felt your tears began falling not wanting to continue your sentence you just sat there being quiet as he began to comfort you even more. As you cried onto him hugging him deeply sharing your feelings to him will always lift up a heavy pressure weight on yo Yas you realized that he wasn't mad at you for keeping it to him even though he doesn't really know about the full thing yet since you cut mid-sentence.  Although..there was this problem you start to feel that the hug doesn't feel right..you can't feel his body it's..it was weird. REALLY weird maybe you were just crying too much you wouldn't feel his hug but it felt like he wasn't even real. You felt like it was just another stupid dream playing with your head, maybe you weren't in the real world yet. But you tried to ignore it again..you saw him starting to fade away, the room was fading away as you teared up even more as he fades in your arms everything was a white void. You see that same mirror again, you're tired of it always appearing almost everywhere except you only see a black void. You touched yourself not feeling anything, this made you think about something were you even real..? Or just a creation of your mind..? You didn't know anymore, you didn't care anymore.

"I Just Want You Back.."

You lost hope in seeing him ever again, you were stuck in this stupid dream that can't ever end. You wished you'd come back and hug him once more to feel him again..you thought he'd be there but it was just a stupid dream. You walked around the white void still stuck with the mirror that you've always hated ever since you were taken away from him. Why does life seem hopeless you say..even the author of this story don't even know why life is making us suffer. Will he come back you say in your mind, will you come back to him..? You don't even know where you are, you miss him & Velvet..your family and other friends..the fans, the fame..it felt nothing. You said it's not real anymore.. it has never been real you sat down in the white void looking at the void in the mirror. You still think..you still have little hopes that this wasn't real and your life wasn't a lie..you wait & wait over and over again hoping it was just another stupid dream.

You wake up.

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