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13

First's eyes stay on Khao walking to the car. He can barely make out who is holding him when he cries out for Khao not to go and leave him.

As the car drives away and the older man loses sight of the man he loves, he breaks down, sobbing in the middle of the driveway.

"Come on, First. Let's go in." Net tries to help his friend, but he is drained of all his life essence. Finally, he stands, and Net directs him to the house. Everything is in a daze as he falls on the couch. First's eyes drift to the phone on the table.

"Khao!" First jumps up and runs to the door, clutching at the last thread of hope, "Your phone!"

Net pulls him back and makes him sit. "He is already gone, First."

"He can't," First says under sobs. "I need him. I love him. I ..."

"I know all that, and I am sure he does too," Net tries to comfort his best friend, sitting beside the latter. "Now calm down and tell me what happened so I can help you."

"Khao! I need to find him. What if something happens to him."

It now dawns on Net that his friend has blacked out on the events from minutes ago.

"Khao is not alone. He is with JJ, who will take care of him so you can stop worrying."

"I love him. I will never be able to stop worrying. And with what happened earlier..." First stops as images of his boyfriend in female clothing ready to fuck him resurface. He shakes his head, unable to get an answer to his questions about why his boyfriend did all of this.

"Take deep breaths. I will get us some beer, and then I will wait until you are okay with telling me what happened between you both. I am your friend First. I don't want to see you like this." Net says, comforting his best friend before getting up and heading to the kitchen.

Khao's body shakes as tears run freely down his face. Even if he is driving, JJ keeps an eye on his friend, who seems to have an internal conflict.

"Where did I go wrong? Please bring me back, maybe ... NO! I don't want to see him ever again, ... JJ, please make it stop." Khao's words are inconsistent, and JJ can feel his heart hurting when he watches his friend break down little by little.

Luckily, the ride is not too long, and they make it safely to JJ's room.

Khao looks like a real mess, and his friend almost has to lift him to bring him inside. They stumble after closing the door and fall on the bed. Khao looks to the right and is confronted with his reflection in the mirror. Nothing seems like him. Bile rises in his throat. He quickly rolls off the bed and runs for the bathroom. Taken by surprise by his sudden movement, JJ follows him, comfortingly patting his back as Khao hangs over the toilet.

"Why? How could I?" Khao babbles as he lies back against the wall. He grabs the blond false hair, which is hanging loose, and tosses it far away. JJ helps him move to the sink. After a sip of water, he looks up and is confronted once again with his reflection.

"He will never look at me again," Khao says, fiercely rubbing the make-up from his face.

"Stop!" JJ shouts from behind him, trying to stop him from harming himself.

"Tell me! How can First ever look at me and think of me as the man he loves?" Khao turns and asks his best friend.

"Shhh! Calm down first!" JJ pulls him in his embrace, trying to comfort him as he sobs hopelessly.

After a few minutes, Khao's body gives in to the exhaustion. JJ catches him at the last moment and brings him to the bed.

Khao does not seem to be able to stop crying, so JJ grabs the wet tissues from the nightstand and begins to remove the stained make-up that is left on his friend's face. Seeing his best friend unable to move, he takes a t-shirt and shorts from the drawer and brings them to him.