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A few days before the trip.....

Vikram's pov.....

A puff of smoke from the cigarette relieves my nerves and numbs my brain suppressing the pain in my heart. Will I ever be free from this suffering? My cold heart was exhausted with all the wounds caused to it by the person to whom I used to devote. Living has been becoming hell since the incident which changed my life happened. My mind wants to end this now and provokes me to jump off from this balcony but something stops me from doing so. I don't know what it takes me to do what I wish for. If only I could be given a chance, I'd stop my misery long ago. I take out the cigar and release a puff of smoke. A small cough from behind brings my attention.

"I can't talk right now" I say curtly without even seeing who it is.

"I don't want you to talk either. I want you to come down for dinner" her voice is so delicate yet stern.

"I'm not hungry" I don't want to face them now in my vulnerable state.

"You will be hungry when you stop smoking" she swiftly reaches me and snatches the cigar from my mouth. It annoys me as hell.

"What the fu*k is your problem?" I yell at her losing control of my mind. I wish I could go far away from everyone.

She flinches a bit at my harshness but her eyes become warm on seeing my trembling hands. Anxiety gets over me in no time.

I quiver if I stop smoking. My head hurts if I stop drinking. What have I become? An addict? Shit!!!

"I'm sorry for doing that. But please have dinner with our parents. They have come so far just to see you. You can abandon them but they can't do the same"

"I wish they could" I punched the wall beside me harder enough to scare my sister and leave her alone on the balcony. Before she stops me, I rush to my room ignoring my mom on the way.

"Vikku....." My mom's voice has so much concern about me but my heart is too cold to be melted.

I shut the door on her face and bolted it.

"Vikku....darwaza kholo na...ek baar beta....aapka papa ke liye ek baar bahar aaona beta"

Banging the door irritates me as well so I put the headphones on and put off the lights plugging into my own sinking depression. Life wasn't like this before her. I never knew a person could create a void in my heart. My hollow heart will never become full again. No one can bring me out from this dark abyss I am drowning in. This is how I punish myself until I die.
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"Vikki....Vikki.... please open the door"

"Go away Keerthi"

"Vikki...please. it's an emergency"

"Let me sleep peacefully for one time"

"Vikki..." Keerthi keeps on banging the door.

"What the...." I get up frantically and open the door "It's early in the morning for God's sake.... what's your problem" I shout on her face.

"Just shut up and drop them home. They have to leave immediately" She points at our parents. They look a little anxious. What's wrong?

"Why?"

"Daada is not well. He needs their assistance"

"What!? What happened? Is he okay?" I tense a bit on hearing that.

"Daada ke liye itna pyar. But you never visit him while he is still alive" Keerthi mocks me. She never leaves a chance to tease me.

"Shut up and tell them that I will be waiting for them in the car"

"Why don't you say that by yourself?" She yells while I'm already on my way downstairs.

I can hear that they are talking to her about me but I've ignored them like every time.

I honk for the sixth time but they still have not arrived yet. What are they even talking about for this long? "Keerthi..." I yell her name impatiently.

"Finally..." I mutter to myself when I see them coming from the side mirror. They hop in the car while Keerthi keeps their luggage in the trunk. She closes the trunk and comes to me. I started the engine to get away from her. But she arrives before that happens and stops me from going.

"Don't be a jerk, brother. I am not a fool. Drop them safe and don't be rude okay" she starts her lecture. This is my cue to revs up my engine.

"Theeke.." with that I drive off from our driveway.

The drive is silent until my mom speaks up "Vikku...kya tum abhi bi ham par naaraj hai" I ignore her and keep driving with a straight face. "Vikku..kab tak tum aise jiddi-" I turn on the radio and increase the volume to stop her from speaking. I know where this conversation is going. But my dad scoots forward and turns it off. "This is how you behave with your mom, Vikram" I can sense the anger in his voice because he used to call me Vikram when he's fed up with my stubbornness.

"Leave me alone then" I say it as calmly as possible. "We don't raise you to leave you alone. And we don't leave you until you have someone in your life" They shouldn't have said that. I halted the car aside and killed the engine. I am really fed up with this argument. Why can't they give me some time. "What do you want?" I ask them with irritation evident in my voice.

"Aapka Kushi" mom says bluntly. I know what they want from me but I don't know how to give it to them. I need time and I don't know how to convince them of this. "Give me some time" I say curtly without looking at them. "How much time do you want? This lifetime or til our death" Dad is losing patience and I hardly try not to get away from the car.

Mom might have noticed my anger and the heat of the situation as she speaks to calm down both of us "Vikku... we won't force you now. Lekin you should try to change...you should move on. That's what we wish for you now" my nerves calm down as I hear her saying that. At least they understand what I need now. I wonder if they are implying this from the very start. I should have listened to her yesterday. I should have given her a chance to speak. My fault.

"This is why we came here. To assure you that we are on your side" Dad speaks up after a while. "I'm sorry. I shouldn't be rude" looking at them I continue "I promise that I will try" Mom's eyes brim with tears. She leans forward to kiss on my forehead "I know you will" Dad finally cools down nodding at me for my decision.

We reach the airport in no time thereafter and I send them off. After a long time, I feel guilty about seeing their smiling faces. They worried a lot about me for sure. I promised them to wash away my guilt but I still don't know if I could do what I promised. Let's see what might have written in my fate. Hope it goes well.

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Hey there,

Sorry for the delay. I was occupied. I kinda work now. That's why....Anyway...

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