Visions

Chapter Twelve: The Edge of the Cliff

August shifted his car in and out of gear as we drove down the curvy road to the school. The heat was turned on full blast as I turned the car into a complete ice box with frost on the windows and heat. Unwillingly I chose ice as my power today which the cold does affect me a little bit, unlike Dorian which does not react to the cold whatsoever. We sat quietly after last night's conversation.

We found it awkward to talk to one another without the image of us rubbing our hands down one another's bodies. August felt particularly embarrassed because I felt his hard member against my butt this morning, despite my pleas that it was just a completely natural reaction. He left the bedroom before hearing the shower get turned on.

The silence was starting to make me feel more alone and it didn't help the car situation as frost slowly appeared on the window of the car. "August, I can kind of understand why you are embarrassed with the whole getting turned on thing, but I really can't take this silence anymore. It is just making me more anxious and it is not helping me with control. What happened is normal and there is not any reason why you should be feeling embarrassed about getting a boner. I would get one too," I said the last part quietly and I could feel his eyes staring at me but I didn't want to look at him. "I want to have sex with you so feeling your boner on my butt is not something that you should be embarrassed about." I bit my lip almost as quickly as I said it and in seconds we were pulling up to the school. He found a kind of close parking spot and we stared at one another in the eyes.

"Maraline, you are the first person I have wanted to do that within a long time and I am just having trouble understanding what I should and should not do. You matter so much to me and I don't want you to think I am pushing you into anything or that what I want from you is sex. It is hard for me to understand your boundaries because I have a lot of good experiences and then a terrible one, but you have such a terrible past. I don't know what it is okay to do," he grabbed my hand and sent super warm heat into my body.

"Why don't we have some good experiences right now? We could just leave and find a secluded area in the woods where no one would see us," I said before feeling the heat rise to my cheeks and I stared deeply into his eyes.

"Maraline," he said blushing before looking away, despite being honest about the things I want there is still doubt in his mind about what this is going to look like. "There is nothing more that I want to do than to skip school just to spend the whole day with you, mainly if we can be alone. Everyone will be very upset with us if we decide to do this."

"I know that we have been together for less than a week, but when I think about you, I feel like this is right. You feel like you were meant for me. Maybe that is weird because I know that this is not normal, but when I think about you I feel happy and I just want to welcome the happiness. I know that I am pretty fucked up in the head with death powers and a traumatized past, but I feel good when I am with you. I want to hold onto that."

He welcomed me into a tight warm embrace. "There is nothing I could do to convince you?" I put my hair to the side and rolled my short brown dress up, it had floral straps on my back and then straps on my shoulders. I rolled so far up that he could see my purple high-waisted underwear, his eyes went wide before putting his hand on my thigh.

He looked carefully around the car and saw that no one was nearby. He slid his hand up my leg and my breathing started getting heavy, moments before he pulled me into a deep kiss. He pushed his tongue deep into my mouth and started exploring my mouth. Small kisses went down my throat and he pulled me closer to his body, he put his hand on the top of my waist and glided his hand further up my body as the other inched closer in between my legs.

He let go of the kiss and pulled down my dress before pulling the seat belt over my lap. Confusion washed over my body until I saw him putting his car into reverse and slowly back out of the parking spot. We left the school's parking lot and turned down the road that led to his house. "When Laura and I were younger there was a cliff with a cave that overlooked a ravine, it was very private. We found it when we were twelve, but it is a kind of hard walk if that is okay?" I nodded my head at words, I didn't fully understand what was going to happen, but I was excited for whatever might happen.