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16. Dead wills to live

Anubhav along with others was waiting outside the operation theatre. Two longs hours of surgery had already went. Anubhav's patience and hope was decreasing with each passing second. Suddenly two scrub nurses came out of the theatre and moved to get some instruments in a hurry. Their pace was increasing their fear. They came back and were moving inside when ved stopped one of them.

"What happened? Is everything alright?" He asked worriedly. Anubhav's condition was worsening with each passing second.

"Patient's heartbeat rate is decreasing!" She said and moved inside hurriedly. Anubhav stumbled a bit, being supported by ved. Antara looked at them worriedly.

His vision became blurry as his gaze fell inside the theatre where she was breathing heavily while the doctors were giving her shocks.

Her condition was worsening along with his. All her memories were playing infront of his eyes. For some reason he was feeling as if he was on the hospital bed instead of her. His breath started getting heavy along with her. He wasn't able to handle himself, even a bit. It was being really really difficult for him.

Ved held him and made him sit on the bench. His eyes were stuck to the glass patch that showed her.

Maybe the world didn't want to keep them separated anymore. As truly said by him. This time when they die they die together.

"The patient is out of danger!" The doctor said coming out of the operation theatre. Making everyone leave a breath but still Anubhav looked as if someone had sucked life out of his body.

"We'll shift her to the ward. You may meet her there" The doctor said and left.

Some time later

Anubhav entered the room. His eyes glued to her who slept unconscious on the hospital bed while several instruments were attached to her body. He looked at her. His eyes became glittered as tears beads formed near his eyes. He wasn't so frail and fragile but his emotions were somehow overwhelming him. He couldn't keep it inside him anymore. He wasn't angry on her neither he was.....don't know.

He was guilty because of his words, he was devastated seeing her condition, he was tensed about her, he was....dead

All his inexplicit feelings were eating him up from inside. Earlier he felt his heart hard but now, he didn't even feel it.

With slow steps he reached near her and took a seat on the stool beside her. He gulped hard as he looked at her face. This innocent face shouldn't be injured. No!
He couldn't remember any of his sufferings as he looked at her wounded, unconscious body. With a lot of courage he took her hand in his. His heart pained by just seeing some minor bruises and cuts on her dusky hand. Think about his heart when those bullets pierced into her body. He looked at her as he took his face closer to her hand. His eyes glued to her as his lips featherly touched her skin.
He caressed her hair before getting up.

"Hume maaf kar dijiye.....Haseena ji"

The only words that escaped his mouth. He walked towards the door to go out as he couldn't see her in such a state anymore. He turned and took a last glance of her before leaving.

After some time, Haseena had gained consciousness. Ved and Antara were present in the ward asking about her health.

"Kaisa mehsoos kar rhi hain aap madam?" Antara asked worriedly. Haseena just gave her a nod with a small smile. But both ved and antara could notice that her face was expressionless, her eyes emotionless. She looked as if she was forced to live.

"You did a really good job Ms Mallik! The mission is successful!" He said praising her, trying lift her mood but she still seemed lost.

Haseena

Antara and ved sir are trying to lift my mood but what can I do? I don't want their efforts to fail but I don't have anything in control anymore. I don't feel my life inside me anymore. It should have been better if I had died.

I had at least expected a last glance of him but maybe he doesn't want to see my face at all. He could just meet me once before leaving me alone forever. Why? Why did I live?! I don't want to be his reason of hatred. I cannot face his hatred. If it was anyone except him, then it wouldn't have mattered so much but to my greatest dismay it's him. I feel like crying but my tears aren't supporting me anymore.

The doctor entered the ward.

"How are you feeling Ms Mallik?" He asked professionally. I just gave him a nod as both of my energy and will to talk has gone.

"Good, but you will have to be hospitalized for atleast a week!" I just nodded agreeing to him. Maybe I would have shown some tantrums if it has happened long before but now I feel....emotionless. Huh! Isn't it funny that Haseena Mallik who was known for her emotional approaches has lost it. But I don't blame him for it. I definitely don't.
Maybe I blame myself, I blame myself for all of the sufferings.

On the other side

Anubhav was sitting on deserted peak. The sun had dropped, the atmosphere was silent and peaceful unlike his heart which screaming inside. He was blankly staring at the night sky. His mind devoid of peace, his life devoid of any happiness and his soul devoid of any emotions sat there holding all to himself. He couldn't relax himself, doesn't matter how much he tried.

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Anubhav

Our mission got over so DGP and CM had come to meet us and especially her. As during the Mission she got injured badly and the worst part is I had to accompany them there.

Arrghh

Noo I can't, I don't have the courage to face her. Last night my heart was aching to see her but I couldn't, I couldn't muster up courage to see her, to face her. Her sweet smiling face flutters my heart and at the same time those harsh words of mine pierces into my soul. I feel like dying. I feel suffocated! Oh how badly I want those bullets inside me which injured her.

"I love you Anu-"

Her last words for me. After those words we hadn't spoke. All of my trials to hate her are gone. I couldn't do that, I could never do that.
I remember telling her that she isn't special.
Oh how wrong I was!
She is special, she is damn precious for me, my soul, my existence and I belong to her. she is the rationale of my existence!
Yes she is.

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This is the 16th chapter of ANUSEENA - His Shattered heart
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