Love at First Sight || d.w

I Left Her

Dallon's POV

I forgot where I was until it was too late. Kelsey works there, I knew that. I thought I knew that.

And now I'm god knows where in downtown LA trying to understand what the hell just happened. How did my life spiral so downhill?

Spencer and Linda forced me on a double date, I asked Mer out who is insanely beautiful and open minded. We went to what was it called? Productive? No Providence? Yes Providence, we went to Providence where Kelsey, my ex-girlfriend, almost fiancée, works.

Then I ran. So I'm sitting at a bar called Villains Tarven, going over this a million times to keep myself in check.

And then I ran, leaving a beautiful girl that I took on a date at a restaurant with two people she's not familiar with. I left her.

"Sir? Can I get you anything? Maybe a water, you look kind of pale."

"Huh? Oh um yeah a water I guess."

He hands me a water and I go over what happened again, and again, and again.

I left her....

*****

A few hours pass and the bar is closing so I'm being kicked out. So I find myself walking back to the restaurant to get my car and go home.

Do I even have a home? I don't want a home with all those memories, all the kisses, all the hugs, and 'I love you's'. I don't want it. I can't live there, it'll eat me alive.

It's funny though, you think you're doing okay, and that everything will be okay. Until you run into someone or something that makes you remember why you're not okay, why you may never be okay. There's always going to be a person that has a sliver of your heart, you're never getting that sliver back.

You can act okay for as long as you want, it doesn't mean that you are.

*****

The drive home is long but seems short. I sit in my car for a minute debating if I really want to go inside, I could get a hotel, stay at the studio, stay at Brendon's or Spencer's. Their wives are fond of me they wouldn't mind me be over for a night.

Or just deal with it instead of making it other people's problem, so I get out of the car and slowly make my way to my door and inside.

But I stop just inside the door when I see her sitting on the black leather couch.

"Dallon..."

"You don't live here, Kelsey."

"Dallon, just, let me talk okay? I want to talk to you."

"And I want to go to bed"

"Dallon!" I stop in the doorway of the bedroom at the sound of her yelling.

I sigh, "what?"

"Talk to me..."

"What do you want me to talk about, Kelsey? I gave you everything I had. I wanted to spend my life with you. Kelsey don't you get it? I love you and it's killing me! I can't keep seeing you everywhere and you can't just show up whenever you want! You left me."

"I know. I know I left you, and if I could change the way I felt about being with you for the rest of my, our, lives than I would. Dallon I so would. I just, I need to talk to you, and I need you to talk to me too."

"So talk."

She stares at me for a second deciding what to say and how to say it, "who was she?"