If I Can Love You, Why Can't You? - A Werewolf Novel

If I Can Love You, Why Can't You? - Chp 19 [Sober]

I'm safe/Up high/Nothing can touch me/But why do I feel this party's over?/No pain/Inside/You're like protection/How do I feel this good sober?~P!nk - Sober

A week later and all exams were done and it was the night of end of exams and my eighteenth. I could finally drink legally. In celebration we were heading to the Cruise again. I was excited as hell to be seeing Will and the girls and my year seeing since there was only sixty year twelve students in Dame High.

Walking inside I smiled as the intoxicating beat and vibe blew over us three girls right on time at eight. Jacks gave a soft squeal of delight before walking over to the bar her little black dress. Brooke stood beside me in a floral garment whilst I stood in my midnight blue empire waist strapless dress that I couldn’t wait to show off to Will.

I was missing Will, just the thought of him made my stomach clench and my heart to throb. I hadn’t heard from him since I went to his house and discovered Erin, no phone calls, visits, texts, nothing. And when he did and didn’t contact such as texts I just ignored it. I was adamant he could come to me for once. I was sick of being the one to take the steps. The odd couple chats from his family or mates if they made base was that he was extremely busy and missing me.

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It reached nine and still Will hadn’t shown up, I was tempted to call and demand a happy birthday but the girls kept me happy on the dance floor and the shots were keeping the smile on my face.

It was as I was singing and dancing to ‘Raise Your Glass’ by Pink that someone called out. “Tanz!” my head snapped up to see Brooke. “Phone.” I smiled brightly those cowboy shots going to my head.

I took the phone she held out to me with an outstretched hand and skipped over to the secluded and quieter area. “Hello?” I asked giggling over nothing.

“Tanz? Hey it’s Will.”

I smiled giddily “Hey, where are you?” I asked covering my other ear.

“At the airport.”

My heart instantly sunk my high vanishing “Why?” I asked softly.

“Going to France, some Weres over there is having the same issues as us so I'm going over there to sort it out and all; there are stacks of people popping up with soul mates it’s fantastic!”

I felt as if I’d been punched “Since when was our relationship an issue?” I asked my breath taken as if I was choking, as if he’d ripped my heart out.

“No I didn’t mean it-“

“Oi missy! Here have another shot!” Brooke squealed shoving it in my hand. I downed it in a flash wanting to escape all this pain. Now. Brooke smiled encouragingly and oblivious before skipping over to a bunch of boys in our year.

“Tanze…” Will began slowly “Where are you?”

I felt like crying. He didn’t even remember! This wasn’t even an ‘I'm sorry I can’t make it!’ phone call.

“At the cruise celebrating,” I paused taking a deep breath and soaking up strength “the end of exams and my…birthday.” My voice wavering at the end as I covered my mouth and chucked down the rest of my bourbon that I had in my hand.

There was a long pause.

“Oh Tanze.”

I shook my head holding back tears. I could hear a female’s voice on Will’s side and it wasn’t hard for me to know it was Erin, even if he had ‘forgotten’ to tell me.

“Tanze I am so-“

“Don’t.” I warned my voice breaking.

“Hey Tanze!”I glanced up to see Luke, the hottest guy in our year. Though Will was- STOP! No going there I ordered myself very well aware Will was still on the other end of the phone.

“Yeah?” I asked softly as he approached me in the back of the room his smile sweet and friendly, and as always flirtatiously.

“I think since it’s your birthday and you’re the most beautiful girl here in this club you should get off the phone and come dance with me.” I giggled the bourbon I sculled making me feel better. Luke’s compliments just as helpful.

Will growled on the other end of the phone “Who is that?” he demanded.

I rolled my eyes furious at Will now and tired of the pain “Doesn’t matter. Have fun in France with Erin!” I snapped hanging up and following Luke out onto the dance floor.

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That night I got myself slaughtered beyond means and I made myself dance and sing ignoring the missed calls on my phone and deleting a huge bunch of texts I didn’t even read off Will. A drink was always in my hand and I loved how I was numb to all feelings. I was oblivious to everything and spent the night singing, laughing, smiling, dancing and even flirting.

It was around four in the morning and subconsciously I was aware of Gabe and Ty in the club doing their babysitting no to thanks to Will I imagined. I ignored them the entire night.

I was laughing as Luke made a bet with me to do something and if I lost I was to kiss Luke. I happily agreed. Losing Luke smirked before leaning in and I leant up ‘till I heard the girls speak up with protests. I looked to Jacks and the pang came as I realized what she was about to say. I saw the drink and snatched it without a care in the world wanting to be washed away by the burn of that drink. Running off with it I giggled. One second I was running or maybe stumbling, I wasn’t sure, and the next I-

Was on the floor.

“Up we come.” Ty said lifting me up no ounce of amusement on his face like his usual self, just concern.

I rolled my eyes “So how’s babysitting?” I asked or maybe slurred.

They led me somewhere. Suddenly the cool air hit me, myself absolutely oblivious to how I got out here.

“I don’t WANT to go yet!” I whined resisting as they carried me easily by the elbows.

“Come on your beyond wasted.”

I kicked Gabe in response “Oh come on! I don’t need a fuckin’ babysitter for fuck sake!” the grog making my blood boil angered beyond means.

“In ya get.” One of them said buckling me in.

I huffed folding my arms. It was silent until a song I liked came onto the radio which I happily hummed to swinging my legs back and forth over the cars seat in the backseat. I was subconsciously aware of them saying in the front something about telling Will. I didn’t care. I wasn’t the slightest in the mood for Will. All that did was make my eyes rim. Where had my drink gone?

Pulling me up they lead me up the front steps the kitchen lights on. Oh great. “Tanze!” Dad’s horrified voice reached my ears.

I beamed dopily “Mmmm?”

He sighed heavily “Adam yes but you…” he said warily as the boys hoisted me into the lounge room.

Laying me down on the lounge Gabe crouched down by the side of the lounge at my height. “This is for you.” He held out a small box wrapped in purple wrapping paper with a silver ribbon.

I looked at it for a long moment. It was obviously from Will. The gift he bought me for my birthday he had forgotten about. I met Gabe’s eyes his eyes wide with concern. My eyes pooled and his eyes flickered with recognition seeing the tears in my eyes.

I took it out of his hands only to peg it at the wall before rolling away from Gabe’s eyes and turning my back on everyone.

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