If I Can Love You, Why Can't You? - A Werewolf Novel

If I Can Love You, Why Can't You? - Chp 24 [Never There]

Everytime that I need you around/You're never there/You're never there/Because in my life is where I need you now/But you're never there/You're never there~Hoobastank - Never There

Racing down the hall away from my savior and Allen I was halted to a stop by someone else “Tanze!”

“Oh Adam!” I cried throwing my arms around him sobbing uncontrollably into his shirt.

Adam hoisted me up in his arms and carried me into his bedroom where Amber was on his bed her legs spread out. She looked up smiling her face falling as she saw me curled into Adam’s chest crying my eyes out. “Shhh baby girl.” Adam cooed pulling me onto his bed between the two of them. “Shhh tell us what happened.”

And I did, I told them everythingsince I moved to Dame. Every detail to discovering Will was a werewolf to being attacked by Vampires, to Will and me splitting up even though we were soul mates to Allen just trying to get into my pants. Every detail. And they listened to it all, Amber stroking my hair as Adam encouraged me with gentle words as I gasped for breath.

By the end my eyes were dry and red as they both held me, the only people I had left and they held me not judging not even calling the doctor but listening. Since finished it fell silent.

“You don't think I'm insane?” I croaked my throat hoarse and dry as I broke the silence with my sickly sounding voice. I grimaced at the sound of it and how it felt.

Adam chuckled softly “I know there are werewolves Tanze.” He said stroking my hair from my eyes.

My brows furrowed “How?”

Adam sighed “Amber’s a witch.” He said gently as if I’d break. “She can...she can see and feel peoples’ past, present and futures. The people she loves. We’ve known about all that happened to you including with Will.”

I felt as if I’d been struck.

Abruptly I stood up pushing them aside and stood up to face them. They blinked at me stunned; Amber with her gold hair and gold eyes her appearance always beautiful to me, an eerily beautiful. Now I knew why. And Adam sat with dad’s dirty blonde hair and blue eyes as he watched me questionably.

“You guys knew?” I asked wounded.

“Tanz-“

“You knew I was crying myself to sleep every night when you moved away? You knew mum and people in school were bullying me? You knew I was attacked by Vamps and put into hospital? And yet you just let me waste away.” My pained voice barely a whisper.

“Tanz-“

“No!” I screamed “I trusted you! Both of you! You lied to me and did nothing! All this time I thought you were looking out for me Adam even when you moved away when you knew. You left me alone. You left me and now you’re telling me you lied!” I cried the tears I was now well acquainted with back. I felt like screaming. Who could I trust? Adam looked at me with pleading eyes. “I trusted you.” I whispered.

Without another word I walked back to my pink and purple room wanting to curl up into a ball and die.

♥

I ran myself a spa soaking myself to the point I was an old grandmother as I scrubbed away all the pain and dirt. My eyes were red raw from all the crying as I continued to weep. I felt like this hollow shell that had everything ripped out of me.

I was on my own, no one left all to turn to. Dad still hadn’t called. The girls I couldn’t call, beside I was afraid to discover if they knew the whole time too. Will was gone. My won brother had left me to my own disaster happily. I was all alone and realizing I had no one to trust. I’d never felt so alone in my life.