To All the Guys i've liked

Moving on

Maria's POV

I know y'all think i don't have a heart or maybe i didn't like him, maybe i used him... Yeah, y'all have reasons to judge me but how else would this have gone, it would ended anyway so i made it now so it will be less hurtful and easy. I really liked him, he was calm, gentle, jovial, handsome but he wss going to college and he'd meet new people, girls.. and hook up with one or two. Okay, maybe not but he would eventually like someone else and break up with me. And what if that does not happen? He'll be too busy with school stuff and we would talk less and it would just keep hurting the both of us and we don't need that especially him, he has to build a solid foundation and i don't want to be a distraction. I found myself consoling myself and giving reasons why i broke up with him. Down to Earth Maria. Harley said. I'm sorry, were you saying something? I asked. Yes, i was asking what elective you are choosing. She said. I haven't figured that yet. I said. Alright, i guess I'll leave you to your thought. She said and left. I think i really need to work hard and take whatever i have off my mind by focusing on my books, plus i have to boost grades, my last result was good but i don't want good, i want the best. I thought to myself. These guys have started, can they just leave us be, always finding ways to bully us,  Landon, a classmates of mine said. What did they do this time? Josh,  another classmates of mine asked. They kept playing with Eric's stuff. Landon said. They don't rest, do they? Josh said. I think he deserves it, i thought out loud and my seat mate Natasha heard me, Maria, what do you mean by that? She asked. I mean he's always everywhere, disrupting the class, always showing himself, i hate his guts. I said. I'm sure you don't mean that. Natasha said. Mean what? I asked. You hate him? She pointed out. Ohh, i mean every bit of it, i hate everything abou him. I said. You don't even know him and you hate him? She asked. I don't need to know him to know he reeks of trouble and everything i dislike in a person and I'm not interested in knowing someone him. How can you carry so much hate for a human? She asked. I'm not even sure that one is human. Aishh... Stop it Maria. Just drop the matter because nothing you say will change my opinion about him. I said and left the Class. That was my nemesis, Eric, everything he does upsets anf irritate me and i don't know why because the truth is that like what Natasha said, i don't know him but i dislike his guts, well i have that bad attitude of judging someone from how they behave without actually getting to know them.

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The weeks went by really fast and now we are one week into my exams and after this, I'll be a sophomore. When i was a freshman, i hardly open my books to read, and when i do, i really for a very short time but I've decided to channel all my energy into reading to see what it brings out. Hi, keisha said. Hi, Keisha. I said. Wow, Maria Raquel Downs,  you are actually reading, like there is a book in front of you and you are actually staring at it. She. Keisha Eleanor Thompson, firstly, never call my full name like that, i said forming an anger face and Yes i'm reading, this is a new Maria, you know, I want to be serious,  more serious now. I said. Okk... Well i have something that you might actually be interested in. She said. And what is that? I asked. A study Group. She said. Hell no! Thank you for your kind gesture but i think I'm going to pass. I said. Why? She asked. I don't read with people, i can't read with people, you guys will be a distraction to me and even though i love distractions, i want to be a one hundred percent focused.i said. Why don't you try it just once and if you don't like it, i promise to let you be. She said. No, thank you. I said. Just once, she pleaded further. Okay, just this once and if i don't like it, i can stop. I said. Yes. She said. And you won't disturb me again. I said. Yes, i won't. She said. Okay. I said. So... Let's go she said. As in now. I said. Yes now. She said. I put on a pair of jean, my big cardigan, took my books and we left.
* So how was it? She asked when we got back, it was nice but...
But what? She cut me shot. No but it was nice, my but is I'm not doing this again, i think reading alone works better for me  i said. You can't be serious. She said. I'm serious, thank you for this and i promise it was nice but I'll rather read by myself, i read and assimilate better when i do so. I said. Whatever. She said. Are you hungry? I want to order pizza. I said. Yes, i want a pepperoni pizza. She said. Got it, Pepperoni Pizza. You don't want a milkshake? I asked. Nah, i want a pineapple juice. She said. Pineapple juice it is then. I said. Few minutes after our pizza and juice was delivered

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I'm gonna miss you. Keisha. Keisha, it's just a two weeks  holiday. I said. Yeah, i know. She said. If there is actually something that flies apart from planes, it has to be time. Three weeks ago i was preparing for my exams and now I'm preparing to go home for the christmas break but i must commend myself for how i pulled up and got myself together this semester,  I'm moving on well, moving on better than i expected and maybe it worked because i channelled my focus into something else and something good too. I hope he is doing the same for himself, focusing on the things that actually matter and would earn him a place in the world. Lemme guess, you are thinking about Chase. Keisha said. You still even didn't tell me what happened between both of you. She added. We broke up. I said. You guys broke up? Omg... What happened? Was it a fight? He broke up with you. I'm so sorry, guys are like that, he thinks since he is moving to college, he'll catch a bigger fish, i pro... I broke up with him, I'm the one that called the shot, not him. I said. You called?? Why? Did he do something bad? She asked. No he didn't, but like you said, he's in college so he will find someone better, more pretty, someone in his level, someone... Stop it. Keisha said. You broke up with him because of that. Did you have a conversation with him about that? She asked. No.. I said. So you just broke up with him because of your insecurities, do you think he doesn't have his own fears too, you shut him out because of your own fears, that's so selfish. She said. I was just protecting the both of us from getting hurt in the future. I mean you know LDR( Long distance relationship) doesn't actually work, yes we feel ourselves for the first few months, then we reduce the way we talk to each other because we are both busy, then eventually, we just chat, then that too becomes once in a while and then he posts a girl and i start becoming jealous and pick a fight over it and boom, we break up so better now than later. i said. It's just better for the both of us now. I said. Well, you do have a point but i still feel you should have spoken to him about it before making a decision. I know and i also know if i did, he would find means of convincing me that i am wrong. I said. Hmmn... Well,  i hope you are fine. She said. Of course i am. I can say I'm over him. I said. I highly doubt that but let's pretend i believe you. She said. Whatever..
Alarm Beep* i woke up to the sound of my alarm, well this semester has finally come to an end and I'll be going home today. I really don't want to go home. Keisha said yawning. Why? I asked. I'm gonna miss my Man and my siblings won't make it for Christmas so it will just be me and my parent and it will be so boring. She said. But mostly because I'm gonna miss my man, she emphasized. I know what you are doing bi*ch but guess what I'm not going to be hurt. I said. What am i doing? She faked innocency. You want to rub salt in my wound. I said. I have no idea what you are talking about. I'm goin to take my bath, i left her and went to bath. An hour later i was fully dressed, i packed my clothes for the holiday and took my box to the reception. Hello, i said as i picked the call. Ok. I said and hung up. Keisha, my driver is here. I have to leave now. Ohh... She said and pulled me into a tight hug. I'm gonna miss you. She said. I'm gonna miss you too. Are you sure you don't want to ride with me? I asked her. Yes, my boyfriend's said his brother is on his way and would soon be here to pick us. She said. Ok, then bye. I said. Safe journey. She said. Thank you. I said and kept my luggage in the boot, entered the back seat and my driver drove off.

I'm really sorry for the late update, i've just been busy and at the end of the day, I'm too tired and lazy to write. I hope you'll enjoy this episode, please comment and Vote. Thank you.