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Chandni pov
He hugged me..
Hey bhagwan wo hamko hug kiye hue hain or wo bhi kitni zor se..
After sometime he left me and said aaram kar or uchal kood mt krna...
He didn't looked at me and said this...
After saying this he went out..
Whole day I was in my room..As thakur ji said his mother didn't came to taunt me today.. Everybody has done their dinner..I was waiting for him..Will he care for me like morning..Why was I feeling so giddy?? Suddenly my mind rememberd the hug he gave me today morning..
My heart was beating so fast..Oh God he doesn't like to hug... Yesterday he agreed for not doing sex.. Today he cared about me so much after I got injured..
So many things are happening at once..I am not able to decide what to feel..I am definitely happy but again
whenever I try to be happy then suddenly my mind reminds me how I get married to him..How he treated me in initial months of marriage..
I mean the things he is doing for me now ,if someone would have told me one month before that he will do those things for me I would have never believed..
I mean how could I?? Now also I don't know if he is gonna be same or not..Or he is gonna change or am I gonna be satisfied with this..I mean I already feel guilty for enjoying the sex.. I don't know I just want to be happy..But I am scared I have never seen happiness in my life for a long time..
Sometimes here I feel that my life before coming here is real or not..Was I dreaming before then.. Ofcourse it's not possible how can I dream but then again no one talks about my previous life.. It's like that doesn't exist..It is like I always belonged here..
Why am I feeling like crying today??I am missing kids Lata di and my friend Sushma..How are they??Are they even fine??
I have thought so many time to talk to him about them but I am afraid of his answers.. What if he says something that breaks all my hope..I am ready to live in delusion that they are fine that gives me hope that I will meet them someday..
Oh God it is 2:00 clock now..He has not came home till now...He should have come early today to check me..What if he is in a problem..Is he safe...
Or I should be praying for other people safety from him..He is danger for everybody else..By the way that was so sweet of him to scold that lady..She was being unnecessarily mean to me...But I don't understand one thing she knows thakur ji very well infact everybody knows and no one will purposely try to instigate him and by looks of her she got shocked when he held her neck...
I mean why was she shocked..She was rude to me..But anyways I didn't like the way he held her neck..I mean she could have died..
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Next day I woke up and saw my bed was empty and he was not there...Oh my God he didn't come home all night..Where was he??Is he alright??
I woke up from the bed and went to bathroom for freshening up..
I came in the kitchen and started doing my work.. Shanti saw me and said kya hua bhabhi aap itna chup chup kyu hain aaj..
C- Nahi kuch bhi to nahi
S- Are bol bhi dijiye.. Bhaiya ko yaad kr rhi kya??
Then Dhuni entered the kitchen she saw us talking and came towards us...
S- Dekh na Dhuni bhabhi bhaiya ko miss kr rhi...
D- Zahir hai aaj kal wo itna pyara pyara kam kr rhe hain..Yaad to aayega hi unka..Waise ham sach me khush hai aapke liye...
I was getting irritated now..Why will I miss him..I will never miss him...
C- Aisa kya kar diye wo??
