Chandni pov
It has been three weeks since that day and our relationship has taken a back reverse like initial days of our marriage..The only difference is he doesn't fuck me...
Maybe he feels disgusted seeing me only because he talks rudely with me..I don't know if this is better or if that day he would have beaten me that would have been better..In that case atleast he would have felt pity for my condition..
But there is no scope now..But still I tried to be hopeful but one week back I heard something which is breaking me from inside...
Flashback starts
I was crossing my mother in law room when I heard someone saying beta ab chor de us ladki Chandni ko...
I didn't wanted to eavesdropping but listening my name I stopped and the next line I heard made me feel that ground slipped from my feet...
Ek saal ho jayega kuch mahine me tum dono ki shaadi ko or abhi tak koi khuskhabri nhi aayi hai...Usko chor kr doosri shaadi kar le...
I was not able to listen what he replied next because everything became blur from me... Tears formed in my eyes..
He came out of the room and looked at me for a second and went without saying anything to me..
Flashback ends
His going away broke my heart that day.. I am trying to be hopeful but I think I am loosing it now..
I know he has stopped talking to me before also and I had been miserable but I didn't loose hope in my marriage but now it feels like there is no going back to normal...
I tried to take inspiration from Dhuni..She is also living and her situation is way worse than mine and she has no scope of getting her life better but still she tries to find happiness in other things..But I think I am not patient and strong like Dhuni..
I need my life to be normal otherwise I don't know... It pains me to know that my one mistake is costing me my marriage..
But is it fair???He should have talked to me , punished me but just ignoring me and being rude to me is not the solution..
I mean how can I go back to live horribly again after knowing how it feels to be normal and happy...
After listening about his second marriage I cried whole night by covering my mouth.. Because I was not able to control myself and if he would have listened
Sometimes I feel like I should have died with my parents only...My sufferings would have ended then and there only...
Will the prediction be ever true?? Will my husband ever love me like I have read in stories or watched in serials...
I don't know why I am missing my orphanage today...I mean there my life was not best but it was atleast good..
I want to meet my friends.. Right now it's like no one cares about my existence wether I am alive or dead...
I have started wondering if by chance I die on the street then will he ever come to know that because I don't think he will try to find me...I think he will think I ran away...Does he really need me or cares about my existence in his life...
I don't know I am trying to keep up the hope but I think it's getting difficult for me...
I only smile now infront of Dhuni and Shanti now..Not wanting to give them a glimpse of my life reality.. Because they think that my life is perfect..They think that my married life is so much better than them...And I am embarrassed to confess but I like the way they think..I don't want to change their thinking...I don't want to see pity in their eyes for me like everyone else I met in my life..
