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Akash pov
It has been one month since that night... Our relationship equation has changed.. I started avoiding encounters with Chandni.. I sleep on the terrace now and said everybody I want to sleep in an open air for sometime and may be this has been working for me because Chandni's thoughts were now troubling me less..She is out of my sight and I am less affected by her crying happiness sadness... Now if I will avoid her for some more time then I will be again like that old Akash who was not affected by her...
For the first time in my life since I started fucking women,I have not fucked for 1 month..It never happened before..I cannot go to her for this because I don't know why it's hard for me after that day..She had cried a lot that day and I don't want her crying now..Maybe after sometime when I will be not affected by her then I can fuck her....But I don't think that is my problem because I don't feel like fucking anyone and right now for the present scenario their is only problem I face and that is at night because it became difficult for me to sleep now..It takes hours for me to sleep without Chandni.. I miss her talks her hug while sleep...Right now also I am just changing my sides.. God knows when I will be able to peacefully sleep again..
Chandni pov
I was not feeling so good these days...It has been a month now since we talked..I am missing him..It has been a month since I have talked to him or touched him..I miss him so much now.. I never thought I would be this affected with him ignoring me... But now i am thinking that if he is ignoring me then why??
May be I know the reason but was not ready to accept to do that again that's why I was also not making efforts for him.. I was so scared to be fucked outside again..I don't want to do that again..
I am somewhere satisfied with his action because he is not behaving like his brother who beats Dhuni.. I am somewhere relieved that he has not forced me to do that again but why was am I feeling like I am not totally happy..I miss his talks with me, his care.. Will my marriage be like this only for whole life...No I won't be able to survive..
After a long time I have got someone in the name of family who cared for me and I don't want to lose that family... I don't know how and when I started considering him my family..
Yes he is maybe..I don't know I just want to talk to him..
After getting so much attention from him I can't live with him ignoring me all my life...
Maybe I should have not reacted like that day.. Maybe I should not deny his wish to fuck me outside..I mean I can make up my mind and heart for that if he is angry for this reason..
It has been a long time now..Atleast I should had made effort..But no worries I will talk to him tomorrow.. Thinking this I drifted to sleep..
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I woke with the determination that I will talk to him today.. I can't live like this my whole life..I know I am being desperate but I don't want to lose my only family.. I mean what will happen when someday he gets irritated from me for not getting his desire fulfilled..
Or worse he tells his family about my disease and then they get him married to someone else..
What will I do then..No no no this cannot happen.. I have heard that many of them had get married again for the baby... Maybe he has not thought about this because he was getting his desires fulfilled but now this is also not happening.. What if he gets bored of me.. Even if I go away from here who will marry an orphan diseased and already who is married..
I cannot live my life alone again..
