CUT INTO MY HEART LIKE PAPER -lhs💕

05

[AHRIN]
as heeseung quickly hurried off, with a disappointed look, liz had turned to me.

it wasn't until she told me, "Ahrin, i think you may have hurt him.. you should have some more empathy, i suggest you read people better..." that i didn't know how to tell apart feelings or read people. she had a frown on her face as she said this. i could tell she was upset with me or something.

i was starting to feel bad, although i brushed it off.

i went back to my phone, as liz kept looking over at the table with heeseung and his friends.

why? i don't know. i didn't bother to look over anyway.

am i a bad person...?

[HEESEUNG]
soon, i headed home at 3pm. "hey, how was school?" my mom had asked with a smile on her face. with that question, i was reminded of ahrin and the cafeteria. it slightly hurt me.
the humiliation, her words, the fact she doesn't really care about prom except for winning, and the shameful walk back to my table with tears running down my face like i was exposed to a thousand open onions straight to the eyes, the bouquet of flowers in my hand a bit messy. everything in that moment, i don't want to experience again except for confessing.

i wanly smiled, looking back up at my mom to tell her i was doing alright so i wouldn't have to go further into explanation or anything. i just wanted to go to my room, i guess.

"it was fine." i mumbled, sighing as i went to my room, my mom clearly worried.

as i laid back on my bed, i felt like crying again. maybe i should let it go. not like ahrin cares.
but it's alright. if she only wants to go to win, so be it. at least i spend time with her.

im fine with sacrificing a few of my feelings for her.