MY ALPHA'S BREEDER: mother's love

chapter 13

MCKAY POV

Each day in the morning and before dinner the beta pushes me to submit. I lost weight, my hair is a mass but I haven't given in yet. To make it worse he has me waking up at 5 to run then go train. I train twice and run twice a day, he makes my food for me. Today I was feeling weaker than most days, I haven't left the room since I got back from training.

I hear how people whisper when they see me " she doesn't fit him, incompetent, insubordinate.. " they look at their beta and see a good man and me a weak and unyielding mate. I used to like that no one liked me enough to be around me but I find it hard this time. And the beta is not help, he keeps asking me if I will be strong enough to go find my mother. Asking what of use I am to my family.

It hurts me to the core that he ask me such questions. Sometimes his super nice and loving, like when we are outside. He doesn't let anyone to look at  me funny or say anything rude. He holds my hand and not for the public sake. He takes my hand before we step out of the room. Sometimes I find him staring at me.

Jacob- my love... You haven't eaten since morning, are you alright?

When he calls me that I sometimes want to submit but then I don't think that life is for me.

McKay- I will be fine...

He did not say anything, we sleep in the same bed now but don't go anywhere near each other. I get horny and wet from how close we get but I don't think I am ready for us to try again. We shower separately, when I get dressed he takes a shower. Jacob sit on the bed and took off his shoes, he usually takes a shower before dinner and after. I once overheard him saying " I can't sleep with so many scents all over me"

I am sure he was referring to the wolfs he trains and come in to contact each day. I laid there in bed, just letting my head wonder when I felt hands on my hips. I turned around to find a half naked beta, arms, arms.. damn!

Jacob- come... you will feel a lot better when your closer.

McKay- what? No!

I tried to push him but he grabbed my hands and pulled me to him. I was angry but the second our skin come in contact, I felt warmth. I was not sure if I wanted to pull away or stay that way .. and fortunately for me Jacob decided for me.

Jacob- you may not like me nor want me, but our bond formed regardless of those feelings. Being close to me keeps you warm and at peace...

McKay- no funny business!

Jacob- you sleep like a dead person... If I wanted to rape you, I would have.

That made me both scared and annoyed. I don't sleep like a dead pert, I just happened to feel safe around him I lower my guard. Fuck did I just admit he makes me feel safe? Mxm no matter I still won't submit. We stayed like that and I felt asleep, when I woke up I was alone in bed.

I looked outside and it was dark, I slept past dinner. I don't know exactly what time it is but it was chilly so meaning past midnight.  Here in the mountains of the north it gets pretty chilly past midnight. I got up to get another blanket when I hear soft groaning. I looked around and the door to the bathroom was slightly opened.

I slowly went to see and I found.. the beta working on his member. He was so big, I couldn't move. I felt guilty, horny and sad. Sad he did not ask me, guilty knowing I most likely would have said no. And horny because I have been wanted him for so long now but my ego won't allow me to beg or say anything.

I watched as he come all over his hands, I was about to turn around to leave before he could see me when he whispered my name. I quickly made my way back in bed and waited for him. But I heard the shower, he will not be coming to bed anytime soon... So I slept.

Two days goes by and the same thing, I sleep in his arms and he wakes up at night to help himself and shower. Today would be the third day and I had enough of feeling wet and horny and not getting anything. I decided I will do something about it, so when he woke up to go do his thing I pulled him by the arm.

McKay- a mate is supposed to obey right?

Jacob- no.. respect, there is a different. Obeying you have no power, respect your voice is heard.

McKay- ok.. I feel disrespected by you.

Jacob- hmm how so.

McKay- you get up each night like clockwork and return before 5... Where are you going and what are you doing that takes that long?

Jacob- I believe we both know the answer to that.

I was shocked and a bit embarrassed he said that, he got up and I pulled him back to bed. A lot was going through my head, but I have always been one to take what I want. Go after what I wanted and right now that was some good sex, do I know what that is? Nope but I will find out.

McKay- if my job is to respect you.. what's your job? Keep me safe??

Jacob- hmm McKay what is it you want? Spit it out so we can both be in the same page.

McKay- I thought you could read my mind... Yet you have no idea what I want... Hmm

Jacob turned around flipped  over and got on top of me. His lips just above mine, eyes locked on mine and hands on my bare hip.

Jacob- not a mind reader... I just feel your emotions. But I won't do anything till you say so.

What the actual fuck? So I have to beg? My pride refused but my pussy was already begging to be smashed. I bite my lip, trying to get any reaction out of him. But he did not move, he simply kissed me then pulled back again. So I went for his dick, but the second I touched his very hard dick he grabbed my hands and held them on my sides.

Jacob- now, now.. don't go looking for trouble.

McKay- why not? It's the only thing I am good at.

Jacob- hmm that and running you mouth.

McKay- what are you going to do about it?

Jacob leaned in and softly kissed my neck down, he ripped off my t-shirt and took my nipples in his mouth. Ahhh bliss is the only word I can think of, I loved it. The little bite he added, the way he twirled his tongue around my nipples... Fuck. But then he stopped and looked at me in the eyes.

Jacob- nothing... Till you tell me what you want.

I looked at him modified and pissed, he took the cover and covered my upper body and proceeded to go to the bathroom. But I was now wet, very wet and what he did was now all I could think of. So I did something I never wanted to .. beg.

McKay- Jacob please.... Wait.

Jacob- what is it you want?

McKay- .... You. I want you.

Jacob- careful now.. I am a wolf, you can't have one without the other.

I honestly didn't understand that but I told him I wanted both. He come back to bed. Now the first time it was spontaneous but it ended up bad. This time it was slow, I felt each of his breath on my neck, inner thigh. His tongue around my clit, his hands on my hips as he slammed inside me. His balls hitting my ass as he fucked me... The room was steamy from our body heat.  I never understood the use of a mark till he bite down on it and I had the most wildest orgasm in my life.

His whole body covers in marks from my nails, as we made love and fucked throughout the night... I did not care about anything but Jacob and our love making. I only cared about how good I felt, how sore and pleasurable it was being fucked by two different personalities.  I moaned out his name all night and it felt good. I enjoyed our time, we felt like one. Him inside me and me wrapped around him... If this is what love feelinyg like then I want it each night til my very last.