Nothing More

Chapter Six

"A whole week gone and nothing positive...." I say exhaustedly and unenthusiastically, jumping onto Ruby's bed.

I'm currently in Ruby's room.

Remember when I talked about finding a one-night-stand who I'm really hoping to pin my pregnancy on.

Yeah....I've been on the mission to get the right person for the past few days and.....I HAVEN'T FOUND THE RIGHT PERSON!!!!!!!

Calm down, Natalie.....

I really wish I could.....

I'd find a guy and it's either he's married with kids or he's so careful that he wouldn't give out a detail about himself and also carries protection wherever he goes or he's an asshole or he'd wanna do it in a place that's definitely not his place or......

UGH!!!!!

I'm really.....really tired of doing this....this whole "getting a one-night-stand" stuff. I'm starting to think maybe it's a bad idea. Maybe I should just stick with Ruby and I raising the baby on our own.

"What happened with your today guy?" Ruby asks.

"He's married....." I groan.

"Oh.....that's......bad." Ruby says.

"Should I just give up this whole....crap and go with the plan of you and I raising the baby on our own?" I ask.

"Well......normally, I'd tell you to give up 'cause I wasn't really okay with this "finding a one-night-stand" thingy, but it seems really important to you....so I'd only tell you to do what you wanna do. If you wanna give up, it's on you.....if you wanna keep trying, still on you." Ruby says.

I groan again.

"Part of me wants to give up but part of me wanna keep trying. I don't know....I'm so confused...."

"Look Nat, you've got to make up your mind. You've got no time. It's been five weeks already and you're still gonna have to wait for another two weeks after you've done the stuff. If you're gonna keep up with "finding a one-night-stand" then you'll have to find him before another week." Ruby says.

"I know.....I know.....I'm just so exhausted. I feel like I'm being forced to go on multiple blind dates."

"Except you're the one forcing yourself. Natalie, if this has gotten too hard for you then you should really give up. You don't have to push yourself so much and you promised you'd back off if it gets too hard." Ruby says.

"I don't think I can just give up. I have already wasted a week for this...." I say.

"And you could stop now so you wouldn't have to waste another week." Ruby says.

Should I stop?

No, Natalie. You've already started it and now you should finish it...

Yes, I should finish what I started.

I thought.

"No, I'm gonna continue.....but if I don't find someone before the weekend, I'll give up and then we would go on with the initial plan of raising the child without a father." I say.

Ruby sighs.

"You can do whatever you want. My job is just to support you and take good care of you. Just don't get into trouble." She says.

"Alright.....I won't." I say with a little smile.

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Author's POV......

The weekend is fast approaching and yet no good news concerning Natalie's mission. She had agreed with Ruby to give up on her mission if nothing good happens before the weekend. It seems like Natalie has to give up 'cause it's just two days to weekend and there's no good news.