Fox's Love 2017-2019 (REWRITING)

Chapter 6

I laid in bed thinking about the whole ordeal yesterday. I blushed tomatoe red and hugged my pillow to my chest, "Oh my Kami!!! Embarrissing!! Embarrassing!! Embarrassing!! Ugh, I want to die!!" I rolled off my bed and fell on the ground. I hissed as my head slammed on the ground, I sat up and thought about it again. It just wouldn't leave my head.

* Yesterday at the academy alone with Sasuke...*

I clung on to Sasuke like my life depended on it, and I cried into his shoulder probably getting his shirt wet. "I'm sorry Mom, Dad. I couldn't protect my little brother, because I didn't try hard enough he... He was left alone. I'm sorry I wasn't strong enough to keep you guys from dying. I'm sorry I failed you, I'm sorry I screwed up. I'm sorry I didn't keep my promise!!" I thought out loud and kept crying into Sasuke's shoulder.

He didn't push me away like I thought he would, instead he wrapped his arms around me and hugged me back, and he let me cry on his shoulder. After another minute of crying I pulled back looking at the calm and collected face of Sasuke, while mine looked like an utter mess. I had on a little make up and it was all ruined from my crying, there were tear stains on my cheeks and my eyes looked red and puffy. I sniffled and wipped my eyes, Sasuke kept staring at me.

"Do you want to talk about it?" he asked a small flash of concern and curiousity showed on his face before he went back to an indiffrent look. I shook my head and looked down wiping my eye once again.

"No, I ... I can't tell you... yet. Maybe someday I will, but I can't now."

I don't know why I said that I might tell him later on, when I know I should't tell anyone. The less people that knew, the better... but I had a nagging feeling that I wanted to tell him everything. Spill out my hearts content in my feelings for what happened years ago, happened in the last few hours for me. It literally felt like I had just battled the masked man, and I still felt a little bit of pain from the fight. If the cuts and bruises that I had recieved from that man were not healed and scared then I would have been in the delousion that it was still twelve years ago, and everyone I loved from then was not changed or dead.

Seeing everyone was a painfull reminder that I had failed to protect my family. If I had tried harder, if I was stronger then my mom and dad wouldn't be dead. My brother wouldn't know the pain of being a jinchuriki. I would be an adult now, and probably end up in being Dads sucsessor as the first female hokage. Then Naruto might have been my succsessor,and I could watch him grow into a great ninja. I would be married and have kids, I would teach them the ways of my dads fox clan and the ways of being a human too.

If only I hadn't failed... If only I had been stronger... If only... Thats all I can say now, ' if only'... Cause I wasn't strong enough. I hadn't tried enough. I failed and broke my promise that I had made to my new born brother. I can't brake another, I will protect my brother from any harm. I'll protect my friends too. Now I must move forward, I can't dwell on the past. On all the 'If onlys' and 'Ifs ' that could have happened.

I smiled to my self and nodded, alright lets dwell on my new life. I'll only dwell on the present, not the past or the future. My smile turned into a straight line as my face flushed, I looked at the huge tear stains on Sasuke's shirt.

"I'm sorry about your shirt, Sasuke. I was dwelling on the past and wasn't thinking when I hugged you, but I'm all better now." I said. I was surprised that I didn't stutter that whole sentence.

Unfortunately my clumsiness got me, as I stood up and stepped sideways to leave my foot got caught on the chair leg. It caused me to fall forward, Sasuke slid his chair back in attempt to catch me but since he was sitting down and I was standing up we both fell to the ground. I landed on top of him and my lips crashed into his, my eyes opened wide as did his. I rolled of of him and stood up my hands on my lips, my face beat red. Not knowing what to do, I bowed in a hurried manor.