Dark Light,Bright Life

chapter 3

This chapter is still little im so sorry..i'm not really talented tho :) hope you like you like tho 

Mrs.Walter had become the mother and family i used to have.If it wasnt for her i guess i would be dead by now or homeless somewhere.I went to bed early that night because i was too tired to even eat dinner.I went to my room,changed in a pair of pj's then i fell asleep.

I was in a dark room,i tried to figure out where i was until i saw something move in the shadows.It started walking slowly towards the light and that's when i saw my mother coming out of the shadows.She had a evil grin on her face."We were so glad that you left on your own.It made our life so much easier without you Beth.One less person to feed and worry off."I tried to stay as strong as i could but instead i started to crumble."Why?why are you doing this to me?What did i ever do to you?!Why do you hate me so much?"

She laughed as loud as she could,as if she was trying to tell the whole world and then suddenly she was gone into the shadows.I called for her "MOM?MOM! DONT DO THIS TO ME PLEASE!"I fell to the floor kneeling. 

Beth woke up in a cold sweat.It was one of her nightmares again.Lately,the image of her mother keeps on appearing on her mind.Beth never really knew or understood why they did all those things to her,hurt her like that and she never stopped wondering.They broke her,they made her the mess she was.She always believed that her family would be there for her but all her believes turned out just false hope and dreams.

The next few days was pretty boring for Beth since her two friends werent around or you can say her only friends.Jason was out of town to meet his family and Kathy was at some family event for a few days.I guess i'm gonna have some alone time but god i just realised i havent had anything in my tummy since last night.I went down to get some breakfast but tough luck we had nothing."Beth,sweetie can you run down to the store and grab some eggs and milk?"I nodded as i made my way towards the door.I grabbed my sweater before leaving the house since christmas is near the weather is dropping.

"Hye,beauty ;)"Jason had texted me.My stomach did a backflip reading his text.No one has ever called me beautiful even my own family .

"Hye,Jason :)" 

"No nicknames :(?" I tried to think of something but nothing came up to mind.

"hm...nope :p"

"that is not fair :) anyways whatcha doing?"

"i'm on my way to get some food."I kept my phone in my beg and when i looked up,my world turned dark.She's here,she's here right now.How did she find me was the only thing on my mind.I ran to the opposite street alley before she could see me.I stayed there for a few minutes but still my eyes couldnt believe what i just saw.Bella.She's here,my older sister.Oh god save me.I peeped at the store again and she was gone.I ran to the store and bought what i needed as fast as i could and ran back home before something bad happens.

"Beth,what took you so long dear?"I looked at Mrs.Walter with a terrified look on my face and i went to my room without saying a word."How is this possible?I swear i kept my tracks clear."I paced around my room thinking how she found me when Mrs Walter came into my room.I stopped pacing and lay on my bed instead."Sweetie,is everything alright?You looked so pale when you came home."I gestured Mrs Walter to sit on my bed with me."I saw Bella mama,she's here.How did she find me?I'm scared mama."I sobbed in her arms.

"Look at me beth."she lifted my chin so i could look at her."Why are you so sure she's here because she found you?maybe she's here for work?Even if she came here for you ,i'm here i will protect you." I hugged her as tight as i could.We stayed this way for a few minutes before i fell asleep in her arms.Mrs Walter told me to stay at home for a few days and not to go out if it's not important but Jason wanted to see me the next day .He said he has something important to talk about and that i needed to see him.I persuaded Mrs Walter to let me go since it's important and i havent seen him for a few days.She hesitated but she would do anything for me to be happy.

I waited for Jason at the garden we first met.He hugged me from the back and he startled me.I smiled at him but i could see that something was not right."Jason,is everything alright?"He avoided eye contact and i didnt feel so good about this."Beth,the truth is i really like you and infact i love you but..."I was so suprised that he confessed to me his feelings and i do like him back but?"but what?"I was so confused at what he just said."You will hate me forever for this.i'm sorry."

I was still trying to understand what he is trying to tell me when i saw someone coming towards us just like in my dream but this time it's real.BELLA.She's literally here infront of me.I looked at Jason but his head hung low."What is going on,Jason?Why is she here?!"I was so confused emotionally and mentally."The truth is Bella paid me to find you,what i say about who i appear to be maybe a lie but what i feel towards you is true and i really love you."Tears escaped my eyes as i realised he lied to me all this time.Oh how stupid and naive i was to actually trust him with my heart.I'm such a fool.

I walked to him and slapped him as hard as i could.I was so angry but not at him but at myself for giving my trust like that."How could you?! I trusted you Jason!"tears caught up in my throat."I freaking trusted you.Only you.Do you know that?! I gave you my heart because i trusted you!I actually thought you were the light in my life but looks like you were the one who burns it out.Oh god!Why was i so stupid and naive to even trust you."He didn't even look at me."Don't blame him,Beth.He was just helping me."I snapped at Bella.

"Don't you dare talk to me!Youre right,i shouldn't blame him because i should blame you."i pointed at her."This wouldn't have happened if it wasn't for you! I HATE YOU"She tried to reach out to me but i flinched at her touch."Beth,You're my sister and you have to listen to me.We're a family."Anger was boiling through my veins that you could see fire in my eyes."NO!YOU.ARE.NOT.MY.SISTER AND YOU'RE NOT MY FAMILY.I lost them years ago."My breathing was so heavy and my chest was so tight that it was hard to breath."you never treated me like your family nor your sister.I was just someone who took a huge spaces in your life and was a burden to you and your family!"I took a few deep breath.

"What happened to you,Beth?You were so quite and you never said anyhing and one day you just left.Why?"Bella's face looked so innocent as if she hasn't understood why i left.I laughed sarcastically at her."Why?Did you just asked me why?HAHA.I thought you guessed it already.You people made me into what i am.People like you and him."I pointed at Jason who happen to look so guilty and broken."Well,i grew up.I've always kept quite but the truth is i was already broken before i ran away to find freedom,happiness but did you think it was that easy?I spent months griefing thinking about Leah.She was the only one who loved me,cared for me and she was the only one i had!"My chest was so tight i couldn't breath.I fell to my knees and in a blink of a second it was dark just like how my life had always been.

The last thing i remember was seeing Jason running towards me.The boy i patheticly gave my heart too and just like everyone else he broke it and left it in pieces.He was the first guy and only guy i ever trusted other than my  father but he played me like fool.I knew from the start that not many good and honest people still walking around on this earth.I loved him but maybe love is just not enough.