Dark Light,Bright Life

Chapter 5

How I wish we could stay like this.We were so happy.I remember the day like it was yesterday.

***flashback***

"Kids come on!" Mum shouted from the living room."Mum,I don't want to rake the family photo." Bella pouted.Mum and dad chuckled while pulling her into a hug."It's Christmas honey,be a good girl now."Dad kiss her forehead.We sat in front of the fire place then the picture was taken in one shot.

***end of flashback***

A tear fell on my thigh.How can my great life turned into such a mess.We were the happiest person that day."Oh god,why did you take the most amazing things from me but leave the pain?What did I ever do to deserve this?"I held the picture close to my heart. I wiped the tears from my cheek.I took what I needed and said my goodbyes to Mrs.Walter and left.

I entered the car and Bella turned to face me."What happened to twenty? I waited for an hour or at least it like it."I just kept quite and looked out the window.I took a deep breath and close my eyes thinking whether I'm doing the right thing going home.

The thought of Jason came into my mind.He didn't even visited me when I was in the hospital.Maybe everything was a lie including his feelings that he claimed to be true.I knew he was too good to be true.I'm scared of being happy because everytime I am something bad will always happens.Maybe I'm just not meant to be happy.

We arrived two hours later,my house still looks the same but somehow it looks gloomy and all the plants in the garden seems to be dying which is odd because mother would die if her plants did.Bella  took my things and brought them in.I went to the garden and memories flooded in my mind where i used to play with Bella in the rain.We were inseperable but i guess things change.Bella ushered me into the house.The house was different from before.The wallpapers were torn and it was dark.It was a mess and all I could think of what had happened when I was gone.The figure of my mother appeared from the kitchen.She looked so thin, so pale, so sick.Tears streamed down her face.She came near me and hugged me with all her strength but I didn't hug her back.I couldn't, the pain in my heart was burning.

"Beth, my baby.You came back.Oh how I missed you." I raised my hand asking her to stop.

"I didn't come here to see you nor the others.I came to see Leah." I tried to control the tears in my eyes.Bella took me to her bedroom.I just stood outside her door.

"I'll give you some privacy." Bella smiled and went downstairs.I knocked on the door.Then I heard Leah's voice.She sounded different now.I turned the knob and I entered a pink bedroom.It was filled with pictures of me,Bella,our family."What was it Bella?!" I turned to the bed to see my baby Leah laying under the covers.

"Hye baby, i'm not Bella." my voice broke. Leah turned to look at who it was and she started crying."Beth? is it really you ? am I dreaming ?" I shooked  my head and I couldn't stand my tears anymore. "Yes dear, it's me."

I ran to her and I took her in my arms.How big she's grown while I was away but she was very thin like mom.

"Where did you go? why did you leave me, Beth? don't you love me anymore?"

"Of course I love you Leah.Don't you ever think I don't love you ever !" I talked with her and tried to catch up with her. She's grown into a beautiful girl.

"Beth,you're not leaving right?" I thought about it and I do miss her.

"I will but not for now.I'll stay with you but just for now."

I opened my eyes and realized I fell asleep. I look at the clock on the desk and it was four o'clock. I turned to see my sister sound asleep. I smelled something cooking but instead of going to the kitchen I went to the table with pictures of me and my siblings. I looked at each picture and recalled all the days from the pictures.