IN MY DREAMS

chapter 🕑

I want to know him,

I've been trying to sleep for the past hour, I just want to sleep.. .. maybe some music can help me ... Let's try liyaa ... I play some soft music on my phone it's all going to be 12 please sleep stupid liyaa .... Ohhh.... Okay I need to stop .. talking myself or I don't think I will be able to sleep tonight..... Let's focus on the music.,.......

I can see him,
His eyes, is he crying again..
Hey listen, can you see me .. are you able to hear me..... Why are you crying... What happened... Do you have something to tell me...do you

Why he's not answering me , ... Can you see me .... Hello mr. Dream boy....
Can you..

He didn't say anything, ....

Am I the only one who can see him...?
Am I the only one who can listen his cry..?

Am I the only one .?

"You came "__ he opened his mouth... Those chocolate brown eyes are looking at me ....his hand is searching somthing     ' my hand '..?

I looked at this eyes.... Raise my hands towards him ... Is he gonna hold my hand..?

My phone start ringing....

I open my eyes with irritation.. why night are so short... If it's become little longer... I can probably holding his hand now....

I look at my phone screen,  1 missed call from dad ... I called back... 

Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday my dear liyaa
Happy Birthday to you.

I smile, dad and mom always Start my birthday with happy birthday song ..
From the past 20 year they are doing this, when I was in home , a strawberry cake also came with birthday song, it's like a tradition now

Thankyou mom thankyou dad ...
You always remember my birthday.

   "We are the one who gave birth to you so ofcourse we are gonna remember your birthday, there is nothing to forget liyaa, "

Where is my cake, I say with a playful voice..

" Come home , your cake is ready.. you are the one who's not here, "

Aww thanks , but you know right I can't go home right now, my exam is coming,.. I have prepared so much..

" We know, then come to your vacation okay,

Okay dad ,

" Liya it's mom , are you eat properly.?
Don't skip your meal, "

Mom don't worry I'm eating properly, I eat so much that I'm gonna be fat soon, don't worry about me I'm totally okay... I will visit you soon, okay, ...

Okay "

Ok bye mom bye dad , I will call you later take care of yourself, love you

"Love you liyaa"   

After cutting the call I started thinking about him ,  did he really able to listen me , did he saw me or not.. it's so strange,  should I sleep again..

I slap myself, no liyaa no stop thinking about him... Because he didn't exist.. you are wasting your time to think about that stupid dream.

I start getting ready for the day , but I don't know what to do , I can't go to the clg because I lie yesterday " I'm gonna celebrate my birthday with mom and dad" . And can't also call lina , coz she's the most stupid person I ever meet, she's gonna tell everyone that I lie to them,   so no , never.

Thinking about celebrate my birthday alone is not a bad idea, it's like I'm growing up .. I'm already grown, it's my 20th birthday, so let's celebrate this birthday by my self, Alone.
It's gonna be perfect, and peaceful.

What perfect and peaceful, what I was thinking that time, celebration birthday by all alone is not perfect and peaceful liyaa ,, it's boring, stressful,    I don't want what to do .

Okay okay let me calm myself, breathe in breathe out.... Uhhh.... I need to stop talking myself it's awkward, people are looking at me like I'm a crazy person who just escape the mental hospital,
 
Well , I think I'm little bit crazy soo , ignore those people... Coz it's my birthday... But what people usually do on their birthday, umm cut cake, open present, do party, or went on a vacation to relax... Yeah ...

So first I'm gonna buy myself a cake .... A birthday cake.

I went on a cake shop and buy a small cake for my self,    a strawberry cake...
Can you please write happy birthday to me on the top .?? I asked the Shop owner..
" Yeah, why not... Today is your birthday.? "

Yeah,

" Don't you have anyone to celebrate with you.? "

The owner looks like a decent person, so I tell him .. no I didn't went home because of my exam, and I just want celebrate this birthday by myself,

" Uhh, by yourself, that's a very good idea, young lady , here is your cake "

Thankyou.

" Can you please wait a moment " the owner said with a smile.

Yeahhhh , I mean he looks like a decent person,so I can wait, .. right...

After 1 minute the owner came with a little packet..

" Here , happy birthday"

Thankyou, what is it .??

" Your birthday gift, you are celebrating alone so a little birthday gift for you, birthday without any gift feel terrible"

Aww , thankyou soo much, but you don't have to give me anything, your words are like gift,

" Take itt , it's nothing expensive, just a little gift I made"

Thankyou soo much, really, you think so much just for a stranger ..

" Don't have to thank me so much.. if you love it , and it's makes you smile, than thanks me , come again, I will be waiting for you young lady"

I don't know what is it I know I'm love this present, and I promise I will came back, __ I said with a smile on my face.

After I take the cake I went to find a perfect spot to eat the cake , after walking from the down rode I saw sitting spot near the river, I went and sit there... Wahh perfect spot , it's like I'm the one who exist here, away from all the city noise, ..... So this is call the perfect and peaceful birthday, not bad... Cloudy skies, green trees, cold wind it's kinda my vibe,
I took a spoon full of cake and stuff my mouth, like someone is gonna finish the cake if I didn't hurry,
Watching the cloudy skies, I remember him.. his hair... This clouds are dark like his hair...
Everytime I dream about him, I want to cry , first few months in cry like crazy... Like somthing is missing... And that something is  HE ... The person I never meet the person I only saw in my dreams the person didn't exist in this world.

Rain drops start falling down, watching the river while raining is something new, actually this atmosphere is new , this rain fell new, this wind , the smell everything... New

After getting soaked in the rain I decided to go home , I take my bag and use it as umbrella, like I don't have any braincells, I'm already soaked so why I'm trying to protect myself with this small bag ... God ... Run first liyaa if you don't want to catch cold before exam.

After coming home , I changed and wear my favourite pair of PJ ... And make some hot chocolate for me ,...  Uhhhhh this is what love feel like .. I open the towel from my head and take a sip of hot chocolate, cheking my DM... All the birthday wishes everyone send me ... Replying all these wishes is a stress.. 

I suddenly remembered and the gift that cake shop owner give me...
I jump of my bed and start digging my bag ... Uhhh... It's get wet ... 

I open the present carefully..
It's beautiful... A dream catcher made of seashell and mirror,
I never saw any dreamcatcher this beautiful,..  it's perfect in size also...
Like how I like.

Finally I own a dreamcatcher __ I smile looking at it ,
Where should I put this.?

Above my bed, yeah, this part always look empty, it's gonna me perfect here ..

I tie the dreamcatcher above my bed
And said, pretty dream catcher let's catch all my good dreams all my goals, okay.