haqiqat

- 14: i love u, i am sorry.

— note : DADDY'S HOME YALL.
voh thoda sa trauma aur uske baad aur zyada trauma hogya tha but dw sher is back😈

AND haqiqat mae kaafi jaldi khatam karne wali hu like only 25 chps honge in my opinion kyuki maine bola bhi tha apni stories par ki ye book kaafi hi choti hogi, aur ek aur baat ye filler chapter hae aur bina motivation ke likha hae so please just bare with me.

ABHIMAAN

vridha is staying at the hotel and i absolutely despise it, i wish i could bring her home with me and keep her safe, right in my arms.

i know all i had of her was a vivid memory of her clutching my hand tightly and never wanting to let go that night, but i can't help yet feel things about her that can't be named, emotions that are too soon to arrive but i still feel its already late.

i pace around my room, my chest absolutely heavy with an unrecognisable uneasiness that i tried so hard to ignore but failed, this nagging discomfort of something feeling off, like a hint that my world is going to fall apart, is making me lose my mind.

i lay on the bed, staring at the ceiling as i let my mind run crazy with thoughts, the what-ifs in my brain eating every ounce of peace and comfort in my body, replacing it with nothing but a beating heart.

the room was pitch dark as all i could see was the shine of my watch that reflected on the mirror, creating a tiny ray of light, i couldn't help but wonder about vridha's presence.

is it okay to let someone you met a few days ago corrupt your thoughts so much? giving them the freedom to control your emotions when they're not even physically present in the room? the idea of letting vridha break through the walls i carefully built for years is all scary yet intriguing.

everything is so easy with vridha, i don't have to try my best and be on my best behaviour, i don't have to force myself to laugh or smile, it's all natural, everything with her feels natural.

she risens my heartbeat yet she's the only one who can calm it down, vridha is bringing back the little guy who enjoyed the thrills of life until life decided to snatch it all away.

i rummage through my pants, pulling out my phone as i text her number for the first time.

A- are you asleep?

i typed down those words, hoping to see the 3 dots but all i had was an empty screen with just 1 text, that was mine.

the uneasy feeling in my chest kept increasing every second as i decided to dial her number

"the number you're trying to dial is currently switched off, please try again later"

my breath hitches as i hear the phone automatically hang up, a million possibilities of something happening with her slapping my face as i rush down the house with my car keys in my hands.

it was raining heavily but all i had in my mind was to see vridha safe in her room, there's a possibility of her just falling asleep while her phone died, but my heart tried to warn me that it might not be the case.

i drive towards her hotel in speed, breaking all the speed limits, my hands clutching the steering wheel as i hold my heart on the sleeves, i was scared, absolutely devastated as i kept on murmuring under my breath the same words i always repeat