Fell in love with a Playgirl [A FayeYoko Story]

Chapter 36

Marissa's POV

I don't know what to feel right now. Parang gusto ko munang ipahinga lahat ng mga nangyayari. Gusto kong ipahinga yung sarili ko.

Should we rest? Ayokong masaktan ko siya. Pero kung ipagpapatuloy ko 'tong nararamdaman ko kay Yoko, ako naman yung masasaktan.

Hindi lang ako yung masasaktan, pati si Ice. I love her. But i love Yoko more.

Alam kong mali. Do consider me as a redflag woman, but you can't blame me. Nagmamahal lang rin naman ako.

I know that at this point, kalaban ako ng mundo at kalaban ko ang mundo. Parehas ko silang mahal pero mas mahal ko si Yoko.

I didn't bother replying to her. Sobrang sama kong girlfriend para kay Ice. I don't deserve her and she doesn't deserve someone like me.

I looked at Yoko who's sleeping peacefully. Bakit ka nila nakakayang saktan ng ganito? I hope you heal from your wounds. I know the world is cruel and chaotic, but i still hope for a chance. Just give me a chance and i'll make your world better. I'll make the world better for you, for us.

Mahal kita kahit ako lang yung nakakaalam.

I'm rooting up there to give me some strength, and courage. A courage to let myself say in front of you my inside thoughts that i couldn't say to you.

Nasasabi ko lahat pero bilang kaibigan mo. Nasasabi ko lahat ng problema ko, pero yung nararamdaman ko? Hindi.

My feelings for you that i couldn't tell is an exception. Kasi hindi ko kayang sabihin sa 'yo. Masasabi ko lahat pero yung nararamdman ko sa 'yo hindi.

Hindi ko alam kung mahaharap pa ba kita. Ayaw kong sayangin yung chances, i know i've missed a lot of chances pero ngayon, i wouldn't let it slide.

Hindi ko na palalagpasin. Sinusubukan kong huwag maging duwag, pero kapag ikaw, tumitiklop ako. Nato-torpe, nanghihina. Lahat na.

I couldn't handle myself anymore.

I placed a kiss on her lips and gently touched her face

"Alam kong mali na maramdaman at gawin 'to kasi kaibigan kita. Pero hindi kaibigan ang tingin ko sa 'yo" i said to her before standing up and i was about to head to the door when she suddenly called me.

Yoko's POV

"Marissa" i called her. She was about to open the door.

"Y-yo" she looked while stuttering. I saw that she wiped her tears.

"Umiyak ka ba?" I asked her. She just shooked her head and tried to look at me directly to my eyes

"Come here" i called her. Nagdadalawang isip pa ba s'ya na lumapit sa 'kin?

"What happened? Why are you tearing up?" I asked

"N-na ano a-ako kasi g-graduation na graduation natin nandito ka sa hospital" she replied. I wiped her tears that was slowly falling down from her eyes.

"Mari, it's fine" i said as i caressed her back giving her an assurance.

"May hindi ka ba sinasabi sa 'kin?" I asked. She looked at me with a nervous face.

It's obvious to her na kinakabahan siya. Narinig ko lahat, alam ko yung ginawa niya.

Hindi ako galit. Gusto ko na siya mismo magsabi nung nararamdaman niya sa 'kin. Gusto ko galing sa bibig niya lahat ng sasabihin niya.

Hanggang bukas nalang, kung bukas ng gabi hindi niya pa sasabihin sa 'kin, anong mangyayari? May girlfriend siya, ayaw kong makasira ng relationship pero na g-guilty ako. Sobrang manhid kong tao.