Who knew someone who's name I couldn't even pronounce right. Someone who didn't matter to me. Someone who was literal nothing would turn into everything I ever needed?
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"Ammi No.. I'm telling you the truth.. Please believe me i dont even.. Trust me.. " I opened my eyes.
And my face was wet.
It was one of those dreams again. Where my mother was accusing me of having a haram boyfriend. I broke down into tears again. Why can't she just trust me. I don't even make eye contact with any boy and move aside when Pari and Tanishka talk to their guy friends. Just because her one of the sister did it why would i? Why can't she just.. Trust me?
Am i that unlikeable?
If only my mother could trust me i don't think i'd feel half the pain i feel everyday. Her eyes scares me. She once said she'd k me if there was something like that.
It's hard to explain when you didn't even do something to someone.
I want to know why i agreed to Allah once again if i wanted to take birth in this world.
Then at school it was the same drama. We had another beef with the other group. And just like i was starting to feel sick of it.
During the assembly i couldn't help but cry silently. I felt the deep lump in my throat that if someone slightly brushes off me. I'd lose myself and crouch down to cry.
Why was i crying? Why was i feeling the same feelings every single day.
Even during the class i had hard time to control my emotions.
Just what was i becoming?
Maybe that was when. I started to show the symptoms physically.
*** Instagram
Sweetie I miss you Soo much I may have lot of friends but I can never forget you Where are you?
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I ignored it knowingly well after texting for a day Or two she'd also quietly leave. Isn't that's what others do? What's the point of even replying? After all she was just an online person I treated like all other people.
She was constantly texting me but i left her on seen. Let's see how long is she willing to remember me.
