Complicated Dark Love

Aaru POV

I sit on a bench in a corner of the garden where no one comes. Whenever I am sad, I always come here. The sound of birds, the cool breeze and the happy faces of the people always give me peace. I just sit here and watch old couples and children from a distance.

And sometimes I just close my eyes and feel only the sound of birds and the wind, I feel as if I am in a different world, far away from the world.

This is my secret place which always makes me feel better. When you do not understand anything then it is better that just give your brain a little break and then think with a clear mind.

And even today I have come to find the
peace and I am not really feeling better.

Do you know why I ran away from him today? Because I know that when I speak, I have no control over my mouth. And I also say things to him that I shouldn't say that's why I run away from there.

If I were that old girl who would just listen to everyone, then today I would have just cried in front of him and given him explanations. I would explain to him that he is thinking wrong. I am not like that. But I am not that person anymore, let alone listening, now someone will think before even fight with me.

Well, let me tell you one thing, you must have heard that love changed a person or the person changed because of the family and I don't know what else but according to me if someone can change a person then it is friendship. And in my case, Friendship taught me not to have any expectations from the other person and don't trust anyone blindly.

And now you people must be wondering why are I am talking like I have two heads. But that's the thing friendship is what changed me.

Now I will not bore you much, I am just telling you that if you do something for someone, then in return they will also do something for you during your bad times, never think like this because it is what hurt you in last(exceptations).

That's why I have stopped asking for anything in return from anyone. And ever since I have done this, I really feel good. That's why I am still alone here and I am starting to like it like this.

But today I needed someone. I wanted to ask someone why I was feeling so bad about his words. Because these questions in my mind are making me very restless.

Do I still have a crush on him? but I thought this is my respect for him but then why whenever he is in front of me I am not able to say anything.

And when he said me all this today, my heart hurt a lot, it felt like someone had stabbed me with a dagger. If someone else was in his place then I would not have left him today. But not him I felt bad but because he thought this way about me. It didn't matter to me what anyone thought, then why should it matter to me now.

Veera was right, we should stay away from each other and as I said, from now on I will consider him a stranger and maybe my feelings for him will also end like this.

Yes that's what I am going to do from now on. I always thought that if we have any problem with someone, we should talk to them so that complications do not arise.We only become restless when we keep it in our mind and don't talk about it.

But here the thing I think he don't like me at all that's why whenever we meet he said things which clearly shows his hatered towards me. And I can understand it. And I think that's also what he wants to ignore me.