Her Capture,His Desire

Chapter 5

               Amelia's POV (Emily's Mom)
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I failed...i failed as a mother, I couldn't protect my only child. How could I let this happen?.

I should have done something...anything, but I let her down. I let them take her. I'm a terrible mother.It felt like my world had crumbled right before my eyes and she was my world,she was all I had and I let her go so easily.My heart ached so much and there was no remedy for it. I felt so empty right now.

My eyes were red and puffy from crying,my face streaked with tears. I couldn't sit still. I just kept fidgeting with my hands or the hem of my shirt. I was barely holding myself together.

I didn't know what to do,I was literally helpless.

I looked over to the monster who caused all this,he had a neutral expression in his face. He doesn't even try to offer any words of reassurance.

I glanced at him again, hoping for an indication that he shares my pain and regret. But his face remains impassive He looked so carefree, like he didn't just experience a literal kidnapping.

I felt frustration and anger bubbling inside me adding to my already overwhelming sense of guilt.

"You.....how could you let this happen" I said amidst tears.
"What do you want me to say? It's done, she's gone.I already told you, it was bound to happen either way,there was nothing I could do. Not even you could stop it".he replied so nonchalantly.

"Some unknown men just kidnapped your daughter and you're acting like this, aren't you worried. Don't you care, don't you feel anything at all?. Our daughter is gone and all you can say is 'it's done'?. How could you be so cold and heartless?".

"What do you want me to do?. Scream?, Cry?, Throw a tantrum?. It won't change anything" he said unapologetically.
"No, but it would show that you care, that you actually give a damn about our daughter. But you don't do you?" I asked.

"Maybe I don't, I never wanted a daughter in the first place. You're the one who insisted on keeping her. I never wanted a child period, you know that. I never had any interest in being a father or having a family. You're the most one who pressured me into it, now look where it got us.Like I said before, I don't fucking care, they can kill her I couldn't care less".

I gasped at his words, how could someone be so heartless to his own flesh and blood.

"Is that all there is to it then? You never cared for her, never loved her?. She was just an obligation,a burden?" My shoulders slumped in defeat.

"Basically yeah, it's not like I ever had a choice in the matter. You convinced me that you wanted to keep her and I went along with it. But I never really cared for her, loved her like a father should". My face crumbled as I absorbed his words. I always knew he didn't care for her, but to hear him say it out loud,so bluntly and unapologetically,was like a knife to my heart.

"I hate you" I said with tears in my eyes,my heart breaking into a million pieces.
"I'm still wondering what you did. And why did our daughter have to pay for your foolishness. What did you do that put our daughter in danger? Why did she have to pay for the price of your actions". I asked him.

"It's none of your business and it's definitely not your concern" he says matter-of-factly.
"Not my concern?, not my business?. She's our daughter!. How can you say it's not my concern?.I have every right know what you did to put her in danger."

"What does it matter, really? She's gone now. Knowing the details of what I did won't bring her back".
"It matters to me", don't you understand that?. I need to know why this happened,why she was taken away from us. You owe me that at least" I said.
"I don't owe you anything and you're asking too many fucking questions, it's getting on my nerves".