It Just Happened.

In Love

I walked out of the snack bar. Wow that was fun. I didn't know what to say. I liked Lise, she was chill. I knew that both of us would get together very well. I couldn't help but smile to the fact that Lise and Luke were talking about when Luke will ask me out. Maybe that wasn't true but I couldn't stop smiling. I take a deep breath as I drive closer to my house. My mom is probably waiting for me inside. Oh yeah and I also have to tell her about my History teacher, what was his name... oh yeah Mr. Langston.

"Hey darling," my mom was waiting for me out on the porch.

"Hey mom," I say, surprised. I have never seen her waiting for me out on a porch before. "Its... umm great to see you out on such a beautiful day." I smile at her, kinda waiting for an explanation.

"Ahh... I couldn't wait too see you honey. How did your day go?" she asks.

"Well, I met some friends." I start.

"Oh that's wonderful! Well what are their names? Are they fashion freaks?"

"Uhh... mom they are guys." I give her an innocent look.

"How many times have I told you that you shouldn't keep guy friends," she sighs.

"Mom. You had a guy friend why can't I have some guy friends?" I yell at her.

"What are you talking about?" she asks me like she doesn't know anything. 

"Yeah... I think you need to explain Mr. Langston, or should I explain." I say, trying too control my anger. Does she really think I am that stupid. Wow. She is the main reason why I don drugs and probably will be the reason I suicide one day.

"Scottie? He is here?" my mom's face suddenly lights up.

"Umm... if you mean Scott Langston then yes. and whats up with him being your best friend?" I ask her, waiting for an explanation.

She bites her lower lip. I raise a questioning eyebrow. "Okay fine. You can have guy friends. Just don't talk about him. Okay?" she leaves.

"Mom. He says hi by the way."

She turns around and then puts on her what just happened face. "He did?"

"Mmmhhmm."

"He forgave me?"

"Mom... I don't know what you are talking about."

"You don't have to okay?"

"Fine whatever you say." What had just happened? She never talked about anyone, especially her past. She just wanted to let go of it she said that it brought back bad memories. I didn't understand what she meant. The only time I had seen her happy was in the past, where she would always laugh, when my dad was with us. Why wouldn't she want to remember the past? You are thinking too much about it. "Mom! I am going to do my homework so call me when dinner is ready!" I yell so that she hears me, since she is in the kitchen and I am in the front porch.

"Okay honey, I will call you," she yells back. I take my bag upstairs, I don't have homework really. All I have to do is one question about myself. I take out the paper and read the question. It asked me what my favorite subject was, and asked me to explain why I loved that subject so much. Crap. I thought this was gonna be easy. I frown. I hate questions in which you have to explain. The first part is easy because I can put down anything. I think about my answer for an hour, I finally decide what to put down:

My favorite subject is History. History is not my strong subject but it is my favorite subject. It helps me connect to the past, and reminds me that I shouldn't repeat the same mistakes I have made in the past. Its not only a lesson in school which we all hate but also a lesson in life. If it wasn't for history who knows there would have been a WW20 by the time we were born, or slaves wouldn't have been freed. Another reason I like History is because my dad... I stop. I erase my second point, I knew if I said that I would get those pitied looks. I hated them. Why couldn't they just stop it. I got that they felt sorry for me, but that made me feel worse. It would be much better if they just stopped feeling sorry for me, especially Luke.

I didn't want his dreamy eyes to look at me with pity. Oh his dreamy eyes. They were perfect. Once I started looking at them I would get lost. I smiled at the thought of him. What kind of weird feeling is this. It feels like I could think about him forever. Huh. I laughed, for a second I thought that this was called love. Course its not love. I mean I can't fall in love with him, love is dangerous. He will probably just break my heart. I mean he can get any girl and there are way hotter girls in my class than me. But I couldn't stop thinking about him. 

I lay down and close my eyes. Luke keeps appearing. His arms are around my waist and my hands are on his shoulders. We are dancing together. I smile and look into his eyes craving more. He looks into my eyes. He moves closer and kisses me on my cheek. Then his mouth moves closer and closer to my mouth and he leans forward. I close my eyes "Dina!!!!!!!!." startled I wake up. I rush downstairs.

"What is it mom?!"

"It's a cockroach." I find my mom on the kitchen table. 

"Its gone!"

"Can you just sweep the floor... just to make sure."

"Mom. Its gone." Sometimes I am the one who has to babysit my mom. "I am going back to sleep."

I go back up. Thinking about the dream. I smile. He is the first guy who I have never been rude to. I can't even think of hurting him. Bling! My phone beeps. I grab it to see who messaged me. My heart skips a beat while I read the message. Hey Diana. I was wondering if you could go to the fancy restaurant with me? I mean just as friends you know. I smile, and then a giggle comes out and then i start laughing. I don't know how to react to that. I mean the guy I almost have started loving just asked me out "as friends." I doubt that though. What if he felt the same thing for me?