Under His Control [ON HOLD]

12. Changes

You are the poison in my veins

I feel the weight upon my chest

How do I know it's life

I get it everytime you're near

You're suffocating my very existence

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All my grief said the same thing: "this isn't how it's supposed to be. This isn't how it's supposed to be".

And the world laughed. Held my hope by the throat and said: "but this is how it is".

Everytime I tried to accept the truth of my life and be contempt with it. My life crumpled into pieces . I didn't want to lose hope. I wanted to survive whatever this is . But the more I tried, the more I felt disappointed.

My mind had become a prison I couldn't escape. Sometimes it felt as if I couldn't breathe. The weight on my chest increased and the fear crawled up my bones sending shivers. Being near Ranvijay was making me scared. The fear I felt in his presence was unnerving.

My choices , opinions and thoughts didn't matter anymore. Ranvijay called the shots and I had to obey. He wasn't a man to be fooled and that scared me to the core because the secret I had been hiding from him would be the doom of my existence.

My husband was a cold blooded murderer. He wasn't the one to forgive easily. He was merciless. I had been told again and again by the people in this family to never betray him.

"Mrs Rathore , Ma'am is calling you for dinner." Vani said from outside the door in a hushed voice.

"I'm not hungry." I said while laying on the bed .

"Uh okay , If you want I'll bring your dinner here."She retorted.

"There's no need, Vani." I dismissed her . I didn't have any appetite left .

Just thinking about what Ranvijay did to me today brought tears to my eyes. I couldn't do anything. I was just taking it like I was meant to. I had to endure it but for how long . The thought was making me sick.

The sound of the ringing of phone startled me bringing me back from my endless thoughts. It was my mom . I answered the call rather quickly.

"Aleyna." Her voice came feeble.

"Is everything okay? Mom." I asked in a worried tone.

"Yes , everything's fine. I wanted to talk about something important."

"What is it ?." I asked growing impatient.

"Kabir called this afternoon. He went to New York last night."

"Why? I told him not to leave his apartment for a while." My voice came panicked. I told my mom and Kabir about the outrageous conversation I shared with my father-in-law.

"He went there to finalise the paperwork of the new hotel."

"Ranvijay's major business transactions take place in New York . He has control over almost all over New York , Mom."

"Kabir wouldn't listen to me.Aleyna." She said in rushed tone.

"I told him the first thing last week to lay low until this matter settles."

"Aleyna, I- "

"Mom , I'll call you later." I abruptly hung up the call as I heard commotion outside the door.

The door flung open revealing Ranvijay . I took in his presence and I immediately stepped backwards. My fingers tightened around the phone I was holding .