Shattered Mind - Trauma, Texting, and the Slytherins

7

November

Jacob - Alice

Jacob
Hey Alice!

Alice
Hi Jacob

Jacob
What are you doing rn?

Alice
Nothing important
Why?

Jacob
Can we meet up somewhere?

Alice
Sure.
Where?

Jacob
Astronomy tower?

Alice
Ok
I'll be there in 10 minutes

Jacob
I'm waiting :)

Alice's POV

I got up from my bed, and left my book on the bedside table. I put on my shoes and stepped out of my dorm, closing the door behind me. I was nervous, I knew what he was going to ask.

I made my way to the Astronomy tower, the chill wind sending shivers down my spine. I should've put on a sweater. It was almost 7 p.m., and the sun was already setting. I stepped up at the tower.

When I was on the top of it, I saw Jacob. He looked at the view. When he heard me behind him, he turned around, a warm smile on his face. "Hey Alice. Thanks for coming".

He then approached, and hugged me. I returned the hug. We stood there for a moment like that, and then pulled away. "So, why did you want me to come?"

"I... Wanted to talk to you about something..."

"What is it?" I felt my nervousness growing.

"Okay, let's just get this over with... Alice, I like you. And I know, I don't know you so long, but I really like you. And I wanted to ask you... If there is any chance, that the feeling is maybe mutual..."

My eyes widened a bit. I knew that was coming. But I didn't know what I would answer. I opened my mouth, only to close it again. I just stared at him, my brain filling with thoughts.

I don't know what I feel for him. I am not able to love someone right now, I have so many things to worry and think about, that I don't have time for love.

"I understand that you don't feel the same... It's okay, I don't expect you to."

I saw the disappointment in his eyes, and shook my head. "No... Jacob, I think... I do feel the same..."

Uhm... What am I doing?!

His eyes widened in surprise. "Wait, really? Are you messing with me?"

I don't know!

I chuckled a bit. "No. No, I'm not. I actually like you..."

WHAT THE FUCK ALICE

"Wow... That's... Unexpected... But I'm so happy right now, you have no idea." he let out a sigh of relief.

"So... What does this mean for us?"

"Well... Do you want to be my girlfriend, Alice?"

I thought about it. I looked deep into his eyes. Is this the right decision? Am I able to have a normal, and healthy relationship under these circumstances?

"Yes. Yes, I want to."

Good job Alice. Lying straight into his face.

He let out another sigh. "Oh thank merlin, I was so worried."

I laughed softly. "So we're a couple now?"

He chuckled back. "I think we are."

What am I thinking? I can't just be in a normal relationship, when I'm mentally broken! I don't want to use him! I don't want to hurt him! Then why am I doing this?!

I smiled at him. He moved one of his hands up to my cheek, and held it gently. His other hand wandered down to my waist, and he carefully pulled me a bit closer, looking with a soft expression in my eyes. He began to caress my cheek. "May I...?" He whispers. I looked up at him. And I nodded.

Fuck...

Slowly, he leaned in closer. And after a moment, he captured my lips in a gentle and soft kiss, and we both closed our eyes. After a moment, he pulled away. "You're perfect, you know that?"

I felt my cheeks going red, and he chuckled again. "You look adorable when you blush"

"Oh shut up" I said and looked down on the floor.

Why am I using him? I can't use a nice guy to try and get over my trauma! I can't drag him into my mess! But I also can't stop... I'm a horrible person...

We stood there for a while, and admired the sunset. Then it became dark pretty fast, and he walked me back to my dorm. "Sleep well." he said and pecked my lips, before he walked away. I closed the door, fell onto my bed, and buried my face into the pillow.

A million thoughts were running through my mind. But my eyes eventually closed themselves.

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A/n: I'm sorry guys, I know, this happened way too fast, but it had to happen for the plot.

Have a nice day <3