Shattered Mind - Trauma, Texting, and the Slytherins

10

November

Alice's POV

I woke up in the middle of the night, sweating and panting. My cheeks wet from tears and my vision blurry.

I looked at my phone. 2 am. Great.

After a few moments, I managed to get up from my bed and went to the bathroom. I splashed cold water in my face, before going back to bed. I sat there for a bit, and tried to calm myself down. I started to breathe normally again, and laid back down on my bed, clinging onto the covers.

It was haunting me. Since it happened in summer. The memories were still there. And they came during the nights. Replaying themselves.

Showing me what happened over and over again. I couldn't get rid of it. I didn't remember when the last time was, where I got proper sleep at night.

What happened has ruined me completely. It teared me apart. It shattered my mind and my world into so much pieces.

And I don't know how to put them back together. I don't even know if I have the strength to try that.

And I'm so afraid. Afraid, that they will find me, and finish their job.

The girls and Theo reassured me, that I'm safe at Hogwarts and that nothing will happen to me. But to be honest, I don't believe it.

I can't stop turning around and looking behind me, when I walk down the halls. Every time I hear a noise behind me, my body freezes for a second.

I'm paranoid. And I know it.

I closed my eyes and tried to get some more sleep before classes would start. But of course, I couldn't fall asleep. I thought too much about everything. I tossed and turned around for what felt like hours, but it was impossible.

I groaned in annoyance and sat up in my bed again. Eventually, I took my phone, and decided to text Jacob.

Jacob🤍 - Alice❤️

Alice❤️
Hey Jacob.
Are you awake?

Jacob🤍
Is everything okay?
Do you need something?

Alice❤️
I just can't sleep...
I wanted to ask, if I can maybe
come to your dorm?

Jacob🤍
Of course love.
My door is always open for you.

Alice❤️
Thank you, I'm coming

Jacob🤍
No problem darling ❤️

I carefully closed the door behind me, after I stepped into his dorm. I slowly approached his bed.

"Come here." He said, as he shifted in his bed and made place for me. I smiled a bit, and laid down next to him, getting comfortable under the covers.

"What happened love? Why couldn't you sleep?"

"I had a nightmare..."

He didn't say anything. He just wrapped one of his arms around my waist, and pulled me a bit closer.
"It's okay... You're safe with me... Just try and sleep again, okay? I'm here."

His words calmed me down a bit. And eventually, I relaxed in his touch, and fell asleep...

Mattheo - Alice

Mattheo
Where were you last night?

Alice
Also a good morning to you

Mattheo
Answer my question Lennon.

Alice
I couldn't sleep and went to my boyfriend's dorm.
Why do you even care?

Mattheo
Because.

Alice
Funny.
But I'm serious, why do you care?

Mattheo
I don't trust that guy.

Alice
And why?

Mattheo
I do not have to explain myself.
Goodbye.

Mattheo went offline