A Double Suicide

Dazai (4)

Tonight was the night, we were finally going to escape this pathetic plane of existence. Chuuya sat next to me on the couch, we had just gotten home from the bar. This was the last night of our lives, I couldn't help but smile a bit as my loyal dog leaned against me, I held his hand in mine after all we were soon to be welcoming death together. "Mackerel, when are we going to... y'know..." Chuuya muttered, this was unusual Chibi was usually quite loud not mumbling or muttering to where I can barely hear him, he sounded almost anxious. "Patience Chibi the time will come soon..." I told hat rack as I then pushed him down onto the couch. Now that he was laying down I quickly took hold of his wrists and pinned them above his head as he laid under me on the couch. Chibi was adorable, his face red and flushed as he looked away from me. "Aww!~ Is Chibi embarrassed?" I teased and watched as he became even more red. I then leaned in closer to his face and gently placed my lips against his, I kissed Chibi. It was warm, and Chibi was surprisingly gentle while kissing back. I broke the kiss and stared down at him, I released his wrists and began to gently stroke his hair. I then whispered three words, three that no one else would ever hear me say. "I love you." Chibi was red a flustered but he simply pulled me closer to his face. Hat rack pressed his lips against mine and kissed me again rather than responding verbally. We stayed like this for a bit, it felt nice, so wrong but somehow right. For once I felt my non-existent heart feel oddly warm, it was odd how emotions worked. We pulled away from each other as I glanced over at the plain black and white circular clock, it was eleven pm already. "Chibi, it's time..." I told him before I got off of him and the couch. I extended a hand to hat rack, and helped him off the couch. Chibi didn't let go of my hand as we walked side by side, practically glued together towards the kitchen. I opened a plain wooden cabinet to find a few bottles of pain killers, I took all the bottles in my arms. "Chibi, where do you keep your bleach and any other cleaning supplies?" I asked him, even I was surprised by how gentle and seemingly human my own voice sounded as I asked this question. Chuuya pointed towards another shut wooden Cabinet door with his free hand. As he did this I let go of his hand and grabbed a larger knife and slipped in into the pocket of my pants."Could you grab some bleach? Also do you happen to have any rubbing alcohol by chance?" Chuuya nodded and grabbed both the larger white and blue container of clorox bleach and the smaller white container labeled as rubbing alcohol. While he did this I took hold of two separate larger glass bottles of expensive red wine, Chuuya's favourite one. "Mackerel, are we doing what I think we are?" Chuuya asked tiredly, the usual anger in his voice long gone. I simply smiled, "Who knew a Slug could be so smart!?" I teased cheerfully before I walked off down the hall, with my loyal dog trailing just barely behind me. I entered the bathroom, Chuuya followed me, he placed the cleaning supplies down on the counter. I placed the bottles of wine on the counter before setting down all except one bottle of the pain killers. I turned to him with a smile, and handed him the plain white bottle of pain killers. "Enjoy Chibi!" I told him before I grabbed another bottle of pain killers. Chuuya stood there silently, he stared out the small window looking outside at the night sky, as rain drops poured down. "Ah, seems it's raining, what fitting weather for our departure." I told him as I had followed his gazed and noticed the weather. I carefully unscrewed the lid of the bottle of pain pills in my hand, I began to down the pills little by little, Chibi had reluctantly unscrewed the bottle I had given him, but taken his own twist as he downed them with the help one of the bottles of wine I had brought in here. Even on deaths door he can't seem to part with his wine, I snickered a bit. Hat rack didn't care as I watched him take three or four pills at a time before grabbing the bottle and downing some more wine to help the pills go down. I continued to down the rest of the bottle I held in my hands while he quickly finished his. I finished the pills in the bottle I held and pulled out the shiny silver colored knife I had previously slipped into my pocket. Chuuya had gone pale, he let himself crumble to the ground. Slug held out his hand, seemingly wanting the knife I placed it into his hand. Without a second thought, he took the knife and slit his left wrist, a line of crimson and a metallic smell in its wake, as if he were simply wearing some kind of thick crimson red bracelet. Chibi stared up at me, a small sad smile on his face before he held the knife to his throat and slashed it, a large crimson line growing before blood started spewing out of it. Hat rack drop the knife and laid against the floor, "Shitty Dazai..." He muttered weakly, I smiled softly at him my loyal dog, still insulting me as he lay dying on the floor. I went over to the counter and unscrewed the cap of the bleach, I then opened the rubbing alcohol. I glanced over at Chibi, his breathing was slowed and his eyes were wearily and tired, he didn't have much longer. I quickly poured the rubbing alcohol into the bleach, creating Chloroform, soon both of us would be sleeping never to wake up again. I knelt down next to Chibi as he laid on the floor, I pulled him closer to me, he now laid against my chest as I gently stroked his hair. "I love you..." He muttered weakly before closing his eyes, his breathing slowly stopping as I held him closer to me, I leaned in a gently kissed him on his lips as he took his last breath. I held him closely as I took the knife that he had previously dropped, "I couldn't have asked for a more loyal dog Chibi." I plunged the knife directly into my own throat and dragged it across my throat, as soon everything grew dark and I closed my eyes, holding Chibi's corpse closely to mine. "I love you Chibi..." I told him weakly one last time before it was all over.