I met someone a few months ago who has lit a fire under my ass without even knowing it. This person is what has been motivating me to get my shit together finally. He just sent me a message and we started talking.
I'm not going to go into detail what we say back and forth but I would do a lot to get to this man. I've been working my butt off with him in the back of my mind. I'm not gay. Although, I don't mind when he calls me his handsome twink.
Point is I have never felt wanted this way before. I've told him I want to meet up at some point. I'm not sure how to move what we have forward or if there's something more that I could say or do.
I don't think he knows that I have pulled myself up by my own ass after a long period of being aimless, probably because of him. Is that crazy? Whatever the case, it's true. I started clearing out my house and actually making plans without going into detail how I'm going to get out of my situation, around the time we met, after what is again a long time being stagnant.
Don't know if I should tell him all that.
That's all I got for now, other than the realization recently that I may have a minor case of claustrophobia through being anxious when I'm in my windowless bathroom. Might do some good to travel anyway, get out a bit more.
