Hey guys! This is going to be an intro part. As I claimed before it's gonna be mature ,hot, long,detailed and also slow. So give it a try. Your comments are always welcome.
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SHILPA'S POV:
A girl who is on a heavier side especially in an Indian family will always have these two default settings, which is getting anxiety in every fucking possible minute and being an introvert. And I'm no one to escape this cycle. As a girl who is little over weight for my 5 ass feet short height, I have heard enough complaints about my looks.
Still, somehow I spent my 23 years successfully with those compliments. I mean, sometimes I received good ones too cause of my wheat yellowish skin tone(not something to be proud of, i know). They be like "ohhh if only you lose some weight you will be looking more gorgeous" blah blah blah, I'm tired of it already.
Coming to myself i learned about self-love, self-care and all of that stuff recently. Actually, all of this helped me a lot in taking care of myself. Skin care to look glowy, knowing how to dress accordingly to my body type that will highlight my curves. Now, I can at least feel pretty while watching myself in the mirror(Till I hear someone talk about my body weight).
Anyway, the main problem now was that my anxiety about my body doesn't let me get physically close with my boyfriend. Yes, you heard right, I have a boyfriend. He is such an handsome cutie and most understanding partner I could ever ask for. It's already been a year since we started dating. He worked in a company which i joined later. But now he moved to another company which is much suited for his qualification.
And again coming to a problem, as it's already been a year he wants to be more touchy touchy which I would love too. But you know, that some of unhealed insecure part of me keeps me away from him. Question like "what if he doesn't like what he sees" and all this "what ifs" are gate keeping me.
He knew it. He knew it all and doesn't care. No, actually he loves my body so much and always he been more vocal about it. He always tells me that I look gorgeous and my curves looks sexy af in every outfits. Those late night talks are to die for. The way he briefly describes what he will do to my body are such a turn ons. I would be wetting my panties just by hearing it. But when we meet, the shyness and my anxiety gets the best of me.
But he never ever forced me in anything. He understands everything even without me explaining him. He encourages me to dress however I like, even if I shy away some time. The most important thing why I'm never leaving this cutie is because he makes me feel comfortable. I can talk about anything, everything with him knowing that he would never judge me.
But for a few weeks I can see changes in him. He's actually frustrated cause of me. Even though he understands me, he's a man too and he has to get over his needs too right. I can feel that he wants to have sex with me or at least be intimate in some ways. And i promise myself that I'm dying for it too. Imagine how it would be with the man of my life. Pure divine.
Actually we have kissed a lot of times and had little touches too. Not to talk about that chat talks. But when we meet in for real I got my mind fucked and back away feeling absolutely insecure about which he made sure he loves so much for 1000 times.
And it's finally getting into him. Even though he didn't show it directly to me I can feel it in my bones. As it increased my anxiety even more I even avoided kissing him and that fucking irritates him more.
As we are coming to the present, now we are sitting in a hotel to eat, in silence. He's in the opposite seat to mine and currently giving hungry looks to my boobs shamelessly even though the food is all set right to eat. Thinking about it, sends shivers to my core that I have to cross my legs tightly to give a little squish to my lady bud down there. I'm already starting to feel hot. If only I wasn't that shy i would have gotten laid good already. Good luck wasn't in my side it seems.
"Hichm" i coughed to make him look at me.
His eyes suddenly met mine.
"What" he asked in a lazy careless way.
And it gave me a whole butterfly zoo in my stomach.
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It's about to get hot hehe!! If you are into long hot stories, then this is definitely for you.
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