treasure hunters finally becoming who we are

chapter 33

        Bella pov

I couldn't stop crying now. I would wake up and I  would find a storage container with food in it for me.

I sighed because he was sneaking in when I was sleeping to make sure I still had food and then my hand hit something and I looked down and it was a thermos.

I opened it and took a drink and it was his coffee and I just died and went to heaven and slammed my head back against the tree and just closed my eyes and enjoyed the fucking coffee I haven't had in so fucking long.

Then I started eating and I ate it all and just left it there for him.

This just kept happening everyday and I didn't mind at all.

As long as he didn't talk to me and he didn't touch me and I didn't see his fucking ass at all.

I still had fucking nightmares. Plus I had to hide from that stupid fucking idiot all the fucking time on top of that thing showing up.

The thing I ignored. He already put doubts too where Edward don't trust me no more or never has so why even fucking try any more.

He knows the truth about me let him figure it out on his fucking own now!

He fucked up, I will make him figure out what he really wants on his fucking own this time the hard fucking way.

Give him a fucking taste what he just did to me and what will happen if he can't trust me at all.

Plus this is what it will feel like to me if he was dead and gone!

Because I would be just like this but I would actually would do this to him before it happened and he tore my heart completely and told me he didn't love me anymore so I did it before he even could do that to me so he could witness what I would go through instead and the impact it would have on me.

I made sure I documented everything I would find. I leave it behind for Edward because I knew he would keep it all safe for me and I trusted his ass on that.

But everyday I would cry because of how much I really missed Edward because I already thought he was gone.

At least that's what it was feeling like to me. I mean yeah sure he still left me food and coffee in the mornings but I would sense him always staying further back everyday now.

Until one morning I woke up and there was no coffee and no food and I slammed my head back.

Well I knew he was still alive at least. I took a deep breath and got up and started walking again.

I even had to stop leaving things because he never took them either.

He just completely stopped. I just laid there finally one day. I just couldn't fucking move.

I just stared out into the forest focused on nothing. I knew I was hidden out of sight this time so I was okay that way.

I just couldn't move and tears just fell from my eyes.

I just wanted to stay right fucking where no one could find me and just be left the fuck alone.

I couldn't do it any more. I lost him completely and I didn't know how to tell Becca I couldn't bring myself to hurt her like that like I was because it was to much fucking pain to bare.

"I found her little one!" I heard. "Oh Bella what happened to you? I knew I sensed something wrong with you that's why I came and found you! She told me we had to stay away from our body but I needed help to find her!" Little one told him.

"You did the right thing! At least she is hidden from that fucking guy! But the weird thing is I haven't seen that thing either!" He said.

"That's because he is with him!" I finally spoke! "That's why I'm out here!" I told them.