I Got the Job?

Nightmares?: No, Flashbacks

TW: detailed flashback, mentions of insomnia, brief ED touch, vaping, I THINK THATS IT LET ME KNOW IF IVE MISSEF SOMETHING

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Y/N POV:

I dont know how long I was in Lizzie's lap but I was getting quite comfy until her hand accidentally brushed over the bruise on my back and I held in a flinch as best as I could. I felt her freeze slightly and I knew she noticed, she surprisingly said nothing and instead kissed the crown of my head. "Do you want to crash here for tonight or stay in your trailer?" She asked quietly in the silence of the room, Scarlett scrolling through her phone. "Uhm I don't know" I meekly whispered. I wanted an escape, I didn't need them on my ass about my life, but I also wanted comfort. I sighed into the crook of Lizzie's neck before pulling myself out of my comfort place and shuffled off her lap. I became extremely aware of the situation I landed myself in and that terrified me.

Lizzie hummed and ran a comforting hand across my arm, giving me a false sense for security. "It's probably best I get used to my own trailer to start with" I mumbled insecurely and made an effort to stand up, feeling both actresses eyes on me, "Well if you need us, our phones are on and I'm bunking with Lizzie tonight, so we'll be here if anything happens" Scarlett frowned a little at my attempt to escape, eyes trailing over the fruit bowl from earlier. "Thanks ladies, really, um I guess I'll see you tomorrow?" I dodged Lizzie's attempt to give me a side hug and retreated towards the door. "I mean it Y/n, anything and we'll be right over okay?" Scarlett voiced out as they followed me to the door, walking me to the steps to the trailer. I nodded, not trusting my voice to stay steady and pushed the pin to my own trailer, waving her a small goodbye.

Thank fuck, the second I was in my trailer I grabbed my vape and inhaled that shit like it was air. Why do I feel so lucky yet so completely helpless in life. Like what's the deal with that? Anyways I grabbed at my phone and was hit with a bunch of messages from Kai and his brother, that's a tomorrow job I guess. I slipped into a hoodie and some sweats, retreating to the couch and flicked on Netflix, it was currently almost 11:30 at night and I was not sleepy at all. One episode of a series turned into three, then four and then sooner or later I had finished the season. 2:47am. Well that's just fantastic. I groaned as I made my way to my bed for the next 6 months and attempted to close my eyes. Exhausted after all the panic and anxiety of the day, it didn't take long for my body to finally tire itself out.

His hands grabbed at my neck roughly, the ring on his finger bruising into my jaw. The look in his eyes was wild and vacant. "Who the fuck to you think you are huh? Slutting yourself up for my boys to jump on what's mine. Do I need to brand you like a fucking animal so you remember who you belong to?" His grip tightened and his other hand rested on my hip, his thumb pressing into my hipbone. We were meant to go out to a gathering with his group, he dressed me up, not me. He was the one who sniffed a line and smoked up his joints. Not me. And yet here I am taking fault for his actions, again. "Speak up baby doll or so help me god I dont mark you right now" he growled against the shell of my ear and my body trembled underneath his. "You dressed me, this was for you" I sputtered out and before I knew it a harsh slap echoed the room and my face was pale adorned with a bright red handprint across my left cheek.

It happened so fast, the silver of his pocket knife, the tearing of the clothes and the stinging of his indentation. He really fucking branded me. Tears blurred my vision but the pain was crystal clear. His hand came back around my throat and he forced me to look down, wiping my eyes with faux sympathy, "You know I'm only doing this because I love you yeah?" He cooed and the sight horrified me. There, on my left hip was his initials, M.V, which stood for Malakai Vazquez. A name that would forever haunt me. "You're my precious doll, I wouldn't want anyone to ever take you away from me you hear that mi amor?" He tilted my head up to meet his stone cold eyes and before I could agree he pulled me into a kiss, a possessive one.

I shot up out of bed and choked back a sob, my chest heaving and sweat lining my hairline. My hand subconsciously travelled to my hip and I ran a delicate finger over the scars of his initials, shuddering as the flashback came at me full force. I focused on getting my breathing back to normal and only a few more minutes went by until my alarm went off, well I sure am awake now. I closed my eyes briefly to hold back the last of my tears and got up to make myself a coffee, my call time was 7:45 for the table read and it was 6:00 so I had a little time to get myself ready for the day and my nerves under control. The script had myself, Lizzie, Scarlett, RDJ, Paul and Chris Evans which wasn't too bad considering this was supposed to be a big scene with hours of filming. Once coffee was all done and made up, grabbed my vape and perched myself on the couch bringing out my iPad, to finish up some study I had due in a few days.

A soft knock on my door startled me out of my silence and I hit save, grabbing my vape before opening the door to two bubbly Avengers. "Hi honey, you ready for the read?" Lizzie asked as she peeked around checking out inside my trailer subtly. Smooth Lizzie, real smooth. "Yeah just lemme grab my phone and script" I responded and pushed the door a little wider to show I truly wasn't trying to hide anything, not that there was anything to really blast me for. I dont know why but I felt like I needed to prove myself with them. Taking a deep breath, I grabbed what I needed before heading out of my trailer, drawing in my vape while they started to walk back down the steps. "You nervous?" Lizzie looked back and rolled her eyes as I was mid vape, I exhaled and shrugged my shoulders, "Nothing I'm not used to, everything makes me nervous, this is just on a little higher scale" my voice was smooth but deep down I was fucking terrified.

She raised her eyebrows at my response and shook her head slightly, "You know you don't have to pretend, at least not around us, you literally had two panic attacks less than 24 hours ago, I dare say you're still hung up on them" Lizzie sighed sympathetically and once again, I just shrugged not knowing what to say. "If you need to take a second to breathe don't be afraid to give us a sign. You'll be in between Scarlett and I" she gave me a brief look to tell me not to argue and I hung my head lower, knowing she could see right through me. "Mhm" I mumbled as we continued walking a little further towards the main venue for table reads and I quickly sucked in one more vape hit before pocketing it. "You've got this honey" Lizzie squeezed my hand as Scarlett opened the door and stepped aside letting us go in first, thanks for that Scarly, now everyone's watching.

I put a smile on my face and went red cheeked as the Russo brothers came to us with open arms. "Lizzie, Scar! Morning ladies, and welcome Y/n to your first Marvel read! It's lovely to have you joining us on this project!" Joe exclaimed as he went around hugging the three of us respectively, Anthony doing the same with a proud smile. "Thank you guys truly, it means more than you can imagine to have me here" I gleamed shyly as I really took in the room and looked over the three other cast members, waving a small hello to them and subconsciously shifting towards Lizzie. "Our absolute please, please make yourselves coffee or grab a morning snack before we get into the read, this one will probably go for a few hours" Anthony suggested and Lizzie nudged me gently, "Grab a snack" she instructed lightly as we walked over to the small coffee bar. I rolled my eyes but grabbed a protein trail mix.

Scarlett made herself and Lizzie a coffee, turning to me and raising her eyebrows, "Coffee?" She mouthed as Lizzie and I sat down in our seats. I gave her a thumbs up and put my script in front of me, catching RDJ's small smile. "Nice to meet you kiddo, welcome to the team" he bowed dramatically and chuckled at my red cheeks. "Thank you, hopefully I don't get too starstruck" I giggled nervously at his antics and flinched slightly at the coffee cup placed in front of me. "Thanks Scarlett" I gave her a small smile and she waved me off. Time to table read I guess.