Being A Teen Isn't Living A Dream

Can't Stop

                        !!Trigger Warning!!  
                                 Self Harm
                                        &
                                     Guns

     Iz waited outside till the police got there. A social worker also came, but left shortly after. Isla knew a police officer & he always came on site when it was Isla's house. He was 18 & Iz knew him her whole life. He was basically her older brother & Ace and him were really good friends. Ace, Iz & Gavin (the officer) all shared a birthday but were a few years apart. Iz was a year apart from Ace & was 2 years apart from Gavin. Gavin rushed over to Iz as he got there later then everyone else so the social worker has already left. "Iz, oh my God are you okay", Gavin said running over to her. Isla was zoned out like usual. Whenever something bad happened, Iz would disassociate from the world. Gavin knew this so he repeated what he said and Snapped Iz back to reality. She was sobbing and looked up to see Gavin. Gavin hated seeing her cry, so he gave her a hug & let her cry in his arms. They were like that for a good 4 or 5 minutes.

     Finally Isla pulled back and Gavin tucked a piece of her hair behind her ear & said, "Isla, it's okay, talk to me please." He knew Iz would only talk to him and Ace but Ace was still inside getting taken off Daniel. "Idk, can I please stay the night at your house Gav", Iz said while crying a little bit. "Of course, you never have to ask." Isla already had stuff at Gavin's house since she was at his house more than her own. Gavin saw Daniel coming out on handcuffs with blood everywhere on his body. Next he saw Ace coming out with a nurse taking out shards of glass from his forehead. Apparently Daniel had grabbed a vase and smashed it on Ace's head. That was the only hit he got on Ace of course. Daniel never won a fight against Ace. Ace saw Gavin with Iz, and he turned so Isla wouldn't see him. Iz was about to turn around when Gaving picked her up and threw her over his shoulder. Gavin, Ace & Isla used to wrestle on the trampoline and Gavin would always put Ace or Iz on his shoulder the 'threw' them down into the trampoline. Iz started laughing as Gavin did that. He always knew how to cheer her up.

     The real reason Gavin did that was so Isla didn't see Ace getting taken care of because Iz couldn't take it and he knew that. "PUT ME DOWN" Iz yelled while laughing. "Never" Gavin said as he ran around back into the trampoline and threw Isla down on there. Gavin was in uniform so he took his gun & taser out so he would drop them on the trampoline and potentially hurt someone. After a few minutes Iz got hot and took her hoodie off. She forgot what she did the night before.

Ugh, I hate this. I hate myself. I don't wanna be here. I'm worthless. I'm nothing. I'm a horrible person. Nobody cares about me. All those thoughts ran through her head. She went to her bathroom and opened up a drawer when she had a little box that she kept blades and sharp objects in. She took out a blade and pulled down her sleeve as she took the blade to her skin and cut multiple times. 1 cut turned into 3. 3 turned into 7. 7 turned into 12 & before you knew it Isla had cut her wrists 20 times on both wrist and each time deeper. Isla grabbed everything she needed to stop the bleeding. She knew how to take care of all of that because of how often she cut.

     When Isla took off her hoodie, Gavin saw  her wrists. He screamed "ISLA LACEY SMITH, YOU PROMISED ME YOU STOPPED" while he grabbed her wrist as she winced at his grip and him yelling. She realized what he was yelling about and looked up at him to see tears in his eyes. She pulled her hand away and jumped off the trampoline and took off running. Isla did lots of sports the required running. Track, long jumping, pole jumping, and cross country, so she was obviously really fast. Even faster than Gavin who was an officer and caught lots of criminals while chasing them. It took him a few seconds to realize what was going on. After he realized Iz was far ahead and he knew he couldn't catch up to her, so he grabbed his stuff and took his motorcycle that was at Isla's house. When he started chasing her she was no where to be found.

                               Isla's Pov:

     Gavin saw my wrists. Oh my fucking God, GAVIN SAW MY WRISTS. Isla just took off because she knew she was faster then him and it would take him a long time to catch up if he even would. Is had a spot she would always go to when she ran off. It was in the woods, a little shed she had built of sticks and glass a few years back. She arrived and sat down in the shed whilst letting out a sigh of relief.