Rants about Depression,suicide,selfharm and anxiety and they all kill

Her Twisted fairtale

As she thinks back it's always have been the same situations but different things.

Sitting in her room in the corner with a knife,it felt so wrong so so....
The next thing She know Shes slowly watching as She make her fist cut it felt so....

She told herself it was a one time thing, just a fling

As She sit in the same corner the story twist a bit, this time it's not a razor to the wrist, but

It's pills and skipping meals....
"It's not like her to skip a meal"
"Well maybe she knows she's fat"
"Maybe she should go and cut again"it's been forever since she did"
"We like it when it's gone"
"Well maybe She will! And maybe she'll d die"

To her dying sounded so good.....

Later that day she went to the medicine cabinet and snatched all the pills, in hope with out eating a single thing in two weeks....
She took the pills and waited her death.....yet nothing only a three day break in the horror story..

Here her story takes another twist but it wasn't the pills by its self she also put the razor to her wrist

As she watched the crimson liquid run down her arms, she downed the pills and waited her "nap" as she called it...and that was the best nap ever she thought but was mad she didn't die

You think her story is over yet? Your Wong. There is still some more twists and turns....

So she's made three attempts of her death...non of which worked... So she said"try try again and it will sooner or late will work"
That's what she did....

Try four
Try more more more
Try five
Still alive

Here's a turn she took
If she wasn't gunna die soon
Then she was going to die trying

Twist.....
She stopped trying
The dying
She would
cut to feel
Cut to live
Cut to breathe
And she would cut to know she was still alive

Another and final twist in the path of her fucked up life on earth
After trying and trying she's made thirty attempts....

Those attempts led to hospitals
Hospitals turned into mental hospitals and that led back to her home and school where it all made her want to shoot her self

After trying and trying she new it was going to be the last attempts she was ever going to make because this time she new it was going to work....

She didnt bother to write a note or tell she best friend or her boyfriend...

She sat on the floor with the pills. Alcohol and razor...
She cut, and then started crying and slaking......
She was scared
She was Scared to die
She was scared to live and even more scared to die

Here's the final twist

She threw away the razor...
Dumped the pills...
Poured the booze down the drain
Her life is now down the drain...

she cried herself to sleep.....
Little did she know that was the end.....

~neonmidnight, not so neon