Lonely (together)

Chapter 4

Lillian's POV

The second I slam the door to my apartment, I fell to the ground. My heart is pounding, my hands are shaking, my vision is blurry, and I can't breathe. I'm happy and scared. I want to believe this is just a casual dinner to start a friendship, but I don't know how normally friendships start. I kick off my heels, walk to my room, take out the oxygen concentrator, and sit on the floor. I close my eyes and think about what happened. The man at the bar, Harry, oh my god Harry. I don't know how I went to dinner with him, I obviously didn't think much of it, because it was a big step out of my comfort zone. The way he talked, his hair, his face, his hands, oh my god. I open my eyes when the Ventolin finished. I get up and go wash my body. I don't know why, but my body is full of heat.
I put on a t-shirt and panties. I sit on my bed with my back to the window and close my eyes again. My body is hot, my apartment has air conditioning so the heat needs to go away. What if I am sick? I don't want to get sick. I lay down and turned my head towards the window and looked out at the street. Quiet and almost dark. I slept for a while and then woke up at 2 am, the first thought that came to my mind was Harry. I grabbed my phone and opened his chat. I just woke up and I'm not thinking straight, and my body is very hot. Something is wrong.

Me: Are you fine?

Three minutes and then he reply

Harry: I'm good, you okay?.
Me: yes
Harry: Sure?.
Me: How likely are we to be poisoned?
Harry: I don't feel anything, what do you feel?.
Me: HOT
Harry: Did you throw up?.
Me: No, but i feel so hot, the AC on
Harry: Need me to come?.
Me: No, I just thought there could be possible reasons and this is one of them
Harry: What else do you feel?.
Me: Nothing, just weird feeling in my stomach
Harry: Do you want me to take you to the hospital?.
Me: No It doesn't hurt but it's weird
Harry: Are you sure?.
Me: Positive, sorry for texting you so late
Harry: It's okay. If you need anything text me, if something happens tell me immediately, Ok?.
Me: Yes thank you
Harry: Try to get some rest.
Me: Okay good night <3
Harry: ❤️

My cheeks were hurting from smiling and the heat was increasing, my hands were sweaty. I dont know how I had the nerve to text him AT 2 AM??? He's cute though. No no and no. I filled the tub with cold water even though I hate taking cold showers but the heat was unbearable. I got naked and got into the tub. I sat for ten minutes then the heat started to disappear. I tried to think of the stars and books as I fought to sit in the cold water. When the water started to become a normal temperature I got out. I went to bed and prayed to sleep peacefully. But the heat comes back. "Uugghhhhh" I thought about calling the girls but hesitated for a moment.

I called Joll , she's the only one who always stays up late, I'll be her story for three months.
"Lily? Are you okay?" "Yes I just wanted to umm.. are you awake?" "Yes what's wrong?" "Don't make a joke out of me please" "I won't just say it"
"I have two topics first or second?" "First?" ,"Oh god okay" I took a deep breath and stat walking around my apartment.
"Two weeks ago or more I can't remember exactly, I met a guy, we run into each other to be specific. Anyway happened several times over a few days"
"Oh my god, did you lose your virginity? Got your first kiss? Oh my god I'm gonna cry" "No no stop no that's gross" "You said guy!" "Yes wait! We ran into each other at a coffee shop and talked for a bit and he took my number and said we should hang out AND quote "like friends do" " "What the hell?" "He hasn't talked to me for a week until today.. uhh sorry yesterday at the bar, he said he was busy all week and we should go out to dinner, so I went from the bar to the restaurant, and he was ahhhh, I don't know how but weird? We talked a little and ate and then he paid and offered to take me to my apartment, he didn't give me a chance to refuse he looked at me like he was going to bite me!. So I said yes. And he took me home"
She was silent for a few seconds "Joll?" "Find a knife give me a minute"
"Joll please" "This is the first topic?" "Uhm" "The second?"
"Ever since I sat at the table with him until now I feel my body cooking from the heat and there is a strange feeling in my stomach it doesn't hurt but it's strange! I took a cold shower twice! I don't know what's happening, the food or the-" "Oh my god Lily"
"What?" "You're horny" what? "Stop please I'm serious" "I'm serious too!" We didn't talk for a minute.
"Listen, it's okay if you like a guy and you're attracted to him, and he doesn't feel the same way, it happens to all of us right? Just focus on yourself for now and don't let him get too deep inside your head and DONT give him space to take up too much of your time. AND we need the gang meeting tomorrow."
"Okay " i mumbled, my cheeks so hot. "Thank you Joll, sorry for calling you late " "none of that baby, sleep and will say when we can meet tomorrow" "Ok bye"
I wanna burn myself.