My homophobic, biphobic, transphobic,very religious ( absolutely nothing wrong about being religious), slightly very sexist, touchy, inappropriate, disrespectful, unfair, bigoted, strongly viewed, loud and skin scratching cousin , is staying over .
Oh and he hates my music taste... he says it's evil.it pisses me offff! I have to listen to his music (which I don't like ) and then he calls my music Shit!.
Apparently, Melanie is hideous.(WTF)
'billie is a hideous person'.
' Madonna is hideous'
'Alex g, Tv girl, CAFUNÉ,Mitski, beach bunny (etc) are all hideous.'
And yes I think his favourite word is hideous .
He's said a lot about the people I admire/like/love/would kiss, things that if he said them to the actual person, he would probably be arrested .
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When I say he is touchy, I mean it . I'll just say he touches me inappropriately and when I tell him to stop, he continues.
He body shames a lot, I mean most my family body shames me but this is different. Whilst other people in my life won't explicitly say something about my body, my cousin will just say it as it is .
I don't think he really realises the effects his words have on me.
People can have their own opinions and if they want to talk about them but that doesn't mean I will always agree or accept what they say.
Just like others won't always agree with what I say . BUT WHAT I CAN NOT UNDERSTAND IS HOW SOMONE WITH DIFFERENT BELIEFS TO YOU, USES THEIR BELIEFS TO BRING YOU DOWN!. (Not everyone)
To summarise everything going on , my cousin was looking through my phone without my permission. I have a shuffle screen, with many pictures of Melanie Martinez and Hearststopper.
He came across one of the Hearstopper ones-
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He gasped and ran up to me, theses were his exact words " my name (I know most of you know it ) please please please, promise me you will never become gay" . (😭🤣)
Bit too late hun. I replied with " promᎥᔕᗴ" the look on his fucking face was kinda infuriating, he smiled and sighed with relief. I also feel that he is going to tell his mum and she might read between the invisible lines .
He just makes me want to bang my head into a wall ! . I almost relapsed because of what he's been saying/doing , but! I didn't.
But if it carries on I don't know what I'm going to do.
Anyway, sorry for ranting. Hopefully I'll update soon but love you all xx
