"if your mother had a reason to send you here then quit fighting it and just talk to people, quit bottling things up!" jasper says his voice rising in volume not quite as loud as mine though "WHAT IF I DONT WANT TO TALK TO PEOPLE WHAT IF I JUST WANT TO BE LEFT ALONE!!!" i scream with tears running down my face and jasper goes silent not saying a word he just opens his arms to hug me.
i don't let him and push him away "don't touch me!" i snap at him and back away angry tears running down my face and i run out of the cabin my feet pattering against the ground. i hear quick footsteps behind me and feel a strong arm yanking me backwards.
"i was trying to help you! i was trying to save you before you ended up killing yourself!!" jasper yells with raw emotion in his voice and pulls me into a hug not letting me escape it this time and i melt into it quickly.
"i-im sorry" i sob out into his shoulder after about 10 minutes were both calm "uhm well-" "i-" we and up interrupting each other trying to figure out what the hell were supposed to say after breaking down like that. "im not mad anymore, sorry for f-freaking out" i mumble sheepishly.
i look over to see him looking at me funny "its fine i get it but, can i ask you something?" he asks looking at me with an unreadable expression "yeah g-go ahead" i reply "d-do you like guys? the way most boys like girls?" he asks and i freeze up a little but look at him and my throat goes dry, i nod silently and look away trying to calm my racing heart and my flushed face.
"Oliver i wont tell anyone i just- i had a feeling that you might...." he trails off and i look up at him " do you- like them too?" i ask trying not to make it awkward and he looks up at me and smiles "yeah i do i-" he gets interrupted by our cabin mates coming outside "yall coming in?" Cyrus asks softly. we look at each other and both make our way inside.
the next morning, we go to breakfast together and all 5 of us sit at our assigned table "c-can i confess s-something?" Cyrus says quietly and we all look at him and nod letting him know it was okay. "I'm gay..." he says quietly, and we all freeze a little and i push the unwanted plate of food away and say "thank you for telling us, i know how hard that is to do" i see him look at me with a blinding smile
after most of us neglected breakfast we went out separate ways for free time and i head to the lake "i wish i had the confidence to come out like that" i mumble to myself sadly and sit on a large rock pulling my knees up to my chest.
"its different with jasper he asked me i didn't just out and say it." i continue my mumbling my breath slightly picking up pace until im hyperventilating thinking about coming out prematurely i feel a hand on my back and i see jasper and without any words he just pulls me into and embrace knowing i don't need talking i just need comfort.
after i calm down he looks at me expectantly and i sigh "i dont know how he has the confidence to come out like that i mean i could barely even talk to one person about it how the hell will i tell the whole group..." i say placing my jaw on my knees resting my head there. he just sighs, "when they earn your trust and friendship it will get easier until then just try not to panic over it, its a part of you that you cant control so why worry about it" he says softly sounding quite sad "jasper i-" i get cut off by a soft lush pair of lips grazing mine"
AHHSHHFHFH IM SO SORRY FOR LIKE DISSAPEARING OFF THE PLANET LIFE HAS BEEN KICKING MY TALE LATELY AND SCHOOL HAS STARTED BACK.. NOT TO MENTION WRITERS BLOCK IM SO SORRY MY LOVELYS HOPE YOU ENJOYED -xoxo author
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Camp Hope
RandomOliver struggles with severe anxiety and a minor eating disorder, after years of bullying and mental abuse from his peers at school his mother is done with it she decides to place him in a camp to help with his struggles and panic attacks and there...
