Panacea For Life

3. Toxic Relationships

You know the familiar feeling of hammering in your chest and dizziness when you feel everything is going wrong? You wake up each day with a new regret. Your life is full of confusions, at a point you don't even know what you feel like, all you know you are supposed to be happy in this relationship, breaking it off just doesn't seem like an option.

You keep hanging on to it even though it hurts and you know once you fall, there will be no one to save you.

All you know that you have to be with the other person, it doesn't matter whether you like it or not, it's not about your happiness anymore. It's "us". It's the pressure. Your relationship is not what it was like earlier or at least not what you thought about.

You try to think about where it went wrong but, there's absolutely nothing. People say sometimes relationships lose the "spark" with time but, true love doesn't. There's a difference between losing spark and heading towards the ending. Losing the spark has a cure, the latter doesn't. Getting ill-treated, cheated on isn't losing spark, it is losing respect, it is losing faith, it is losing love.

The toxic relationship you have destroys you internally and you don't know whom to trust. Your heart gets shattered into a million pieces which hardly ever find their way back. But, on the outside, you are going to be smiling like nothing happened at all, you are all right. You have to lie to yourself every day. You refuse to face your actual feelings. You know you have to feel happy; you don't have any other options. You know what you are supposed to be but, even if you want to be, you can't be.

You are not even your own master anymore, they control you and the strange thing is- you like it. You won't admit it but, you know you do. You are used to get pain and if you don't get it you start to wonder where you went wrong. This is the kind of thing you face every day and it's no big deal. You completely forget yourself and try to put efforts into making the relationship work but, your actions are never reciprocated.

These kinds of relationships often lead to depression and coming out of it is essential because if you will lose love, you will get it again but, if you lose yourself, it will be hard for you to put your pieces back together.

People say that they know how you feel while comforting you but, they have no idea. Nothing can reach out to you; you are far deep down in darkness. It hurts even more when you come to know that no one would ever understand actually how you feel.

If all these lines describe exactly how you feel, it's certain that you are in a toxic relationship with someone and getting out of it as soon as you can is the best for you. You don't need a relationship where you are being pressured. You don't need to remind yourself every day that this is just a phase that will pass because it's not, you know it too. Love is not a burden, it is affection so, let it be that way. If you are not happy your partner will understand but, if he/she doesn't you know it was not what you were supposing it to be. Let it go, it isn't worth it.

A happy relationship is where you are happy, you find the real you who had been buried down for ages and your partner helps you to come out of the closet and just be yourself.

Love is discovering yourself, not losing yourself.

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I just wrote down all about how I feel about toxic relationships,

I hope this helps you all in some way.

Thanks for reading. :)