- BROKEN AND BROKE - BL, BxB

CHAPTER 13 (s)

Disclaimer:
Mention of suicide
Mention of overdose
Sh mention
Pills mention
Etc

Another first person 4 Justin ^^^

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By the time I exited the classroom everyone had left.

My cheeks wet with fresh salty tears, my eyes felt groggy.

I slowly made my way out of the front doors and scanned the parking lot, as I thought he left me here. He... he

"He wants me dead" I whispered softly, gripping my chest. The same four words repeated over and over in my head a I slowly dragged my legs, walking down the side walk.

I finally made it to a park, a park I knew too well.

I found a bench to sit at.

I don't have my knife or lighter on me. I can't make Ethan's wishes come true.

If that's what he really wants, I'll do it.

I thought back when I first met Ethan in freshman year, how we weren't ever close but I always admired him and had a small crush but I was so popular and busy all the time I rarely got to see him besides some classes and football, then, recently.

I sighed closing my eyes.

Reopening them, taking my phone out of my pocket, I checked the percentage.

34%.

I opened messages, texting Jess.

- Me: "I love you."

- Jess: "??? I love you too?"

I closed the messages between us two, entering the group chat between Bryce, Nathan, and I.

- Me: "Hey guys, I don't say this enough, I really appreciate you two. Thanks for being the best buds out there"

- Bryce: "You good?"

- Nathan: "You too, Justin. Wya?"

I turned my phone off, hoping to preserve battery.

I heard it ping and ring multiple times not bothering, I had a few bucks in my wallet, where could I buy....enough pills to overdose.

Fuck, don't I need a doctor's note for that?

Might as well look, I edited the park and ran down to the nearest pharmacy.

Taking out my phone again I searched up what I could buy. Ibuprofen.. you can overdose on it, rarely fatal but can harm intestines.

Good enough.

I walked up to the counter.

"Hey, do you have any bottles of ibuprofen?" I asked calmly

"I have some in the back, I'll be right back" The lady at the counter smiled and turned on her heel heading to the back.

I exhaled.

"Here, do you need one or two bottles?" She asked

I'll need to consume... a lot..

"Both." I replied

"Around.. 15.50" She said as she opened the cash register

I took out a 20 dollar bill handing it to her

"Thank you," she said handing me a small bag with the two bottles and my change

"Make sure to stop by again" she added as I turned around and started to walk out the door

"Unlikely" I called back feeling the rush of air hit me

Colder.

I jogged to the park to reclaim the bench.

I sat down opening the bag.

Is it wrong to OD here?

I don't want a kid to stumble across my body.

It'll be okay.

I grabbed my phone turning it on, huh.

Messages from Jess, Bryce, Nathan, and even group chats from the football team.

They probably figured out I'm not okay.

Not even one from Ethan.

I put my phone down, taking out one of the bottles

I need to consume _____ milligrams.
(A: I'm not giving instructions on how to overdose and how much you need. I've done research.)

I slowly opened the bottle top, taking one tablet and swallowing it.

Then another.

And another.

This is what you wanted, Ethan.

And two more.

"JUSTIN?!"

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A:

Aaaaaaa omg, who do you think it is? You can probably guess... But is it Norman or Ethan? Or maybe Bryce? Jessica? Tony?? Cameron??? Kaylee? Vincent? Who is it!?

QOTD: character you hate so far >

Mine: Personally... Justin's dad...