New Priorities: a Shatter Me fan-fiction (Warnette)

Chapter Thirty Six

Curled up in a ball, on Aaron's bed, I let myself fall into a soft sleep. Letting all the tension rid itself of my body.

~*{ In Juliette's dream }*~

I'm in a room. A very familiar room. I am back in the asylum.

"No!" I shout, wanting to claw at the walls, digging my way to freedom. "Please let me out!"

I cry out and no one can hear me. I scream and gain nothing other than a strained voice.

I am not insane. I am not insane. I am not insane. I am not insane. I am not insane.

The words that filled my head previously, come back to me as a recited poem.

"Please, someone!" I shout. "Anyone." With my shaking hands, I bring my palms over to cover my ears. "Why am I back here?" I ask myself. "I don't want to be back here!"

"You are worthless!" A low and monstrous voice says to me. "This is where you deserve to be." The voice laughs. "Alone, is where you fit in. Alone is what you live in."

"No!" I shout. "No, no, no, no, NO!"

~*—*~

"Juliette, love!" Aaron's alarmed voice wakes me from whatever nightmare state, I was in. "Love, shhh, it's okay."

I open my eyes and see that all the sheets are dismembered, on the floor - I must have kicked and pushed them off the bed while in the nightmare.

I am sweating buckets, my pillow is even wet, though, I think some of that might be from the tears that stream down my face.

"Juliette, love." Aaron holds my face, gently, making me look at him. "Breathe."

~*—*~

After finding my breath and calming down, Aaron pulls me into his chest. "Are you feeling better?" He kisses my forehead.

I nod, completely exhausted. "Yeah."

"I'm sorry I trapped you in our room, I just wanted to keep you safe, so badly, that I didn't even think about how much of a trigger that must have been for you."

I wipe my eyes and pull away from him. "Aaron," I begin, "it's okay."

He lets out a relived breath of air, then smiles.

"I understand," I tell him. "You wanted me and the baby to be as safe as possible, and that would be me in bed without any danger or risks."

He nods, "yeah, but I didn't take into account that it's your life and that you are the one who makes decisions about your body, not me." His eyes gloss with unshed tears. "No one should tell you what is right and wrong to do with your own body, and I am so sorry that I turned against my beliefs in that, and took control over something that isn't mine." ( # Aaron the feminist )

I smile at him, he is so soft. I know he has this cold and dark persona that he puts on when he is around anyone, other than me, but when that mask falls, he is just the most caring, thoughtful guy. Seeing the two side of him, is like looking at two different people. Though, when he gets defensive and angry, sometimes, it is very, very, very hot.

"You're a good man, Aaron." I peck his lips. "I love you."

He pulls me into his lap and nuzzles me close. "I love you too, sweetheart."

(A/N: Yes I know this chapter is very short, but I couldn't have my two love birds angry at one another. I wanted to have them resolve the issue. So yeah, basically this was a making up / filler chapter. Next, proper chapter, will be out soon!)