Enjoying life is not for everyone.
Some people enjoy their life as much as they can.
Some don't.
Some can't.
Some tried but they were dragged down.
Some just have to daydream about the things they like to have.
It's not that they never tried to have them.
Every time they tried to do something, they were dragged down.
So, instead of try again, they have to struggle to collect their pieces back together.
When they are finally done, it might too late.
Just accept that your life is miserable. You are not special. You just a unworthy human and live your miserable life in your house, doing same daily routines for years and years. And when your brain can't take it anymore, suffer with depression and other mantel issues. No one cares. Because you are nobody.