Against The Law (FreenBecky)

Chapter 12: Tell me

Freen wakes up from the first rays of the sun that playfully flicker on her golden hair... Quiet... And only the faint sounds of cars reach her ears...

She runs her hand over the pillow. She frowns and suddenly opens her eyes... Empty... She's gone...

For a moment, it seemed to Freen that last night was nothing more than a dream... But still, after blinking a little, the girl clearly realizes that she fell asleep in her wife's arms.

She looks around the room. Still empty. Still quiet.

She sighs and gets up... Another morning began without Her...

In the afternoon, the girl reluctantly went to the meeting. While she was there, her head was occupied with at least something other than her wife.

And yet, tiny thoughts about Her flashed by. Thoughts about how good she felt yesterday with the brunette. Just from her presence nearby, she already felt warmth and a certain security. Support.

She remembers her care. Even when they "broke up", Becky still cares about her. No matter what. And these thoughts make Freen just want to howl. Howl about everything at once...

She misses her...

When she returned home she saw the brunette in the loft.

"You've come" the blonde states the fact, entering the loft and looking at the brunette sitting calmly. She closes the door and takes off her coat, taking a step forward. Becky continues to sit on the sofa, crossing her arms over her chest, and then, sighing heavily, stands up.

"Um, yes" she answers, looking around the loft "I wanted to pick up some more things," she answers, scratching her eyebrow thoughtfully. Freen freezes at the threshold. Just looks at Her.

She want to cry again because the words treacherously get stuck in her throat. She hates herself for not being able to say the main thing...

"Don't go" she said insted, quietly, fiddling with her jacket. Looks down

"Don't start" Becky's voice begins to harden. She looks straight at her wife, and then takes her bag and heads to the door.

"You can't leave me" Freen says, turning to the girl. Tears come to her eyes. Her hands begin to tremble and her heart begins to beat with pain.

"I can" she raises her voice irritably. The conversation goes back to its previous direction. Becky doesn't like this.

"Damn, you should stay in this fucking house" Freen already shouts, pointing her finger at the floor. Becky raises her eyebrows in surprise, and then throws her bag on the floor, and, coming a step closer, points her finger at the girl.

"I don't have to fucking do anything" she growls, looking into the blue eyes, "not to live in this house" she points her finger at the floor "not to live with you" she points her finger at the girl "and I certainly don't have to suffer because of you!" Freen stared at the enraged green ones.

"Do you love me?" the blonde asks quietly, lowering her head down. Becky's gaze wavered. She looks at the girl and she just wants to run away from this conversation. Run away from her and not suffer.

"I hate you" the brunette hisses "I hate you. You fucking ruined my life. You are a proud and stubborn sheep!" Becky is already raising her voice. Freen immediately looks up at the green ones. It starts to boil. "Selfish. Fucking selfish. This whole marriage, the most terrible mistake of my fucking life" she waves her hands, "and loving you... This is my punishment. It's a curse to love you. You" she points a finger at the girl, "hurt me so fucking much, I don't deserve such a fate" Becky simply screamed at the last words.

"Stop yelling at me" Freen breaks down, poking her finger at the girl's chest "do you think you're any better?! You tied me to you, and then you took and left me. You told me you loved me and just left. I hate you" the blonde growls. Goes silent. The first tears fall from her eyes.

Tears flow down her cheeks and she just looks at the green ones opposite and how they throw lightning. She sniffles and wipes away her tears.

"What the fuck is this" the brunette raises her eyebrows, pointing a finger at herself "is it my fault? Huh? Am I to blame for being there? The fact that I tolerated your stupid habit? Is it my fault that i agreed to this damn marriage to save your ass from falling apart?" the girl is already breathing noisily through her nostrils, looking into her tear-stained blue ones.

"You.." Freen barks back, wiping away tears. Becky runs her hand through her hair in irritation.

"I hate you" Becky repeats again, looking at the blue ones opposite "I hate you," she shakes her head, without breaking eye contact. "You know what?" she snorts, pointing a finger at the girl "You're a bitch. You want me to be with you, but you never even said why" the brunette hisses, and Freen's gaze hesitates "you never said it. You're a selfish bitch, Sarocha. You can't even overcome your fucking pride. Is it really that difficult for you? Huh?" She stares straight at her, and the blonde just lowers her gaze.

"Just stay" Freen asks again, looking up at the green ones. Becky smiles a crooked smile.

"Fuck you" she mutters through her teeth, turning to the exit.

"I'm sick of you" Freen yells after the girl, and she just irritably pulls on her shoes "tell you everything. You know everything yourself" she continues to scream, standing in one place rooted to the spot "you know!"

"I don't know shit" the brunette barks, pulling on her second boot. Freen continues to stand there.

"Come on, go away!" shouts, waving her hand. Everything begins to blur before her eyes. "File for divorce and don't suffer" she falls silent at the last words. And then she tries to remove the ring.

"What are you doing, crazy?" the brunette hisses. Tears treacherously come to her eyes. Fury and fear simultaneously splash in the girl. About the possible end...

"I'm letting you go" Freen yells in response, still pulling off the ring. She holds it in her hands and just looks at it. "If you loved me, you would never leave me" she shouts and throws the ring somewhere at the brunette's feet.

"It's not for you to talk about love" Becky hisses menacingly, continuing to look into the blue ones. The girls can barely control their tears. "You'll never say that back" she barks and, grabbing her coat, opens the door.

A second... two... and the door slams...

"And leave" the blonde yells as she closes the door, tears already streaming down her cheeks. She puts her hands to her forehead and just cries. "I love you, you crazy " she cries out in one breath and can't hold back her sob. Lips tremble with tears. "I love you" she screams again, as if hoping that she will hear. Crying. "Crap!" She waves her hand and kicks the sofa with force. "Damn you!" continues to scream, wiping away tears and darting back and forth. "I love you, you fool!" continues to scream, and then falls silent. She freezes in place and simply looks at the closed door. Cries bitterly. She sniffles, wiping her wet cheeks. Tears continue to run down her cheeks.

She simply sits on the floor, leaning back on the sofa. She hugs her legs and just cries. Can't hold back emotions...

"I love you" she whispers through tears, burying her forehead in her palms. She wipes away her tears and then runs her hand through her hair. She turns her head towards the door, and through her tears, barely audibly whispers "I love you so much..."

Becky just sits on the floor outside the loft door, hastily wiping away her tears. Throwing her head back, she looks at the ceiling and barely holds back her tears...

It's quiet behind the wall. No screams. No knocks. Nothing... Looks ahead. She sniffles and, wiping away her tears, gets up... She glances at the door. She looks, and then wipes away her tears again... She sighs and, turning around, simply leaves...

To Be Continued...

Author's note: Hey guys. How are you doing?  I hope you realized that Becky heard everything behind the door :) Two chapters left btw ))