Unable to love her

Miracle

So I don't really remember how I ended the last part but I guess it's at the moment I entered the classroom.
Anyways, I was dying from embarrassment even though now that I think of it there was nothing to feel embarrassed about lol cuz that's how my life is.

After I entered the classroom again, everyone was laughing at me, and from the embarrassment I didn't know where to sit cuz I couldn't lift my head all the way, and suddenly I saw an empty seat and I sat there.
The thing is that I sat alone and near a boy he was on my left side.

What can I say about him lol he was literally the most handsome boy I have ever seen, and I couldn't help but look at him though I didn't, well if you ask why it's because he was looking at me lol, and with a smile on his face ahhhh

Like I said before I have no facial expressions at all when I am in public wich makes people think that I am cold and arrogant, naturally people rarely smile at me so I was like really touched when I saw him like that, i mean as much as I could see from my side eye.

I didn't have a phone at that time so I just kept acting cool and as if I was thinking about something looking at the sky, while inside I was still so nervous and anxious also a bit sad but i didn't really dwell on the sad part.

Though I looked like I was living in my own world, I was trying to hear what others are talking about, some conversations where funny but I didn't really laugh, some where boring, and some I didn't even understand but the one that I liked the most was of course the one that was made for me by that handsome boy.

Though you may be interested what he said I'm not gonna tell it lol.

Like two hours pass and I got really really bored, cuz one I had no phone, two I didn't have someone to talk with, and three I was tired of pretending that I am doing something, so I just stretched my right hand and kept pretending that I am sleeping lol cuz that was the best choice that I had.

Yes I had other choices for example I could start talking with that handsome boy cuz in those two hours he talked to me several times but in a form of catcall (I think you guys call it like that), but I didn't reply cuz I didn't wanna give him my attention.
Hmm or I could start talking with students from my middle school, wich I didn't like any of them, but I didn't cuz I couldn't like act nice with them.
Or i could just talk with the four girls that where sitting in front of me but I didn't cuz at that time I thought that they may misunderstand if I suddenly just go and talk to them, Idk like I said the best choice was pretending to be asleep.

But as I said my plans never work, so as soon as I started pretending one of my distant relative wich I never actually met I just saw him from photos anyways he came and talked to me and I was surprised that he knew me lol anyway he was like really really nice he told me that if I ever need something I can go to him and stuff and I was like ok and than he had to go.

Lol the handsome boy was shocked that I talked to him, he didn't know that he was my relative cuz my relative talked to like most of the class, I mean my relative saw me randomly he didn't come especially for me.

Five minutes passed and lol my relatives sister came to my class with her friend and both of them looked gorgeous, all the boys kept looking at them and they came directly at me and she like shaked hands with me and talked a bit, lol the handsome boy was jealous and told her to come sit with him, but she was like no I'm better here and sat behind me.

Lol I couldn't stop laughing whenever I saw his face, what he didn't understand was that she actually liked him and wanted to change classrooms just for him, I knew that cuz as for me and her we both don't like each other at all even though in public we smile and stuff but yeah we don't like each other.

Thank God after like 30 minutes again that professor with the list on his hand came and he again was like the person that the name is not mentioned should go out lol this time my name was mentioned but my relative's name and her friend's name were not mentioned.

And the professor told them to go out and they were like we wanna stay here and insisted, this made others misunderstand that they wanna stay there for me and they acted like that, but thank God he dragged them out lol I was secretly happy.

And after that the handsome boys eyes were stuck at me.

Anyways like this the day ended and I had to go home, when I went home I started telling my sister's and mom everything that happened to school of course not about the girl part, I told about it in a indirect way, which they understood but not completely lol.

Next day I was like still late but exactly in time Idk if you understand it but yeah and this time I went to school with my two sisters cuz they like found a job there near my school, and with my best friend and her sister.

I felt a bit bad that my sister couldn't come with me, and I guess she felt bad to also everyone felt bad when we parted ways especially her best friend lol my best friend's sister. Anyways my friend and her sister didn't make me feel alone and we went to school together.

Everything went good we went to my class and sat together with my friend and when we are together we don't care about anyone else we just started talking, actually never stopped lol since we left our house's.
Well talking and laughing talking and laughing we kinda got in everyone's nerves but like I said we didn't care until that damn teacher came again and we found out that my friend had to part ways with me and we were like both angry cuz we were on the same classroom's for 9 years and they just parted us like that.

What can i say I was angry, sad, and everything cuz I knew that I would be soo lonely, my friend even sent her sister to the principal to change classrooms but she couldn't do anything.

After she was gone I sat one seat below cuz I didn't wanna stay at the same place and this time I didn't even pretend to sleep I really wanted to sleep, so I took a nap and suddenly something fell from the sky to my table at least It felt like that and I was terrified and immediately lifted my head just to see her again, the girl that I fell in love on the first day.

The teacher's didn't let her go out of the class so she went out through the window and came to my classroom through the window above me. Everyone was shocked lol, and she like screamed the name of her best friend and went to her and hugged her.

This was when I fell in love with her for the second time, it was like a miracle cuz I didn't think that I would see her again.

So I am shortly ending this part here cuz the drama that I have been waiting for like a long time just aired and I'm gonna watch it lol and for like the story I know I told a lot about the handsome boy but he is like the second lead lol that's why I have to talk a bit more about him in the story and also please don't mind the mistakes okie anddd hope you enjoyed this part lol I'm like telling myself cuz I'm the only one reading it.
Btw just to let you all know I'm not using names since it's a real story and I don't wanna use fake names. Okie bye now for real.
And I hope someone will read this.