dying heart | minsung

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His eyes opened slightly,wandered around the room,confused

He saw his father in one corner who ran out to get the doctor

His body was still weak,the doctor made him sit carefully

"How am I-"

"That boy saved you" Minho's father cried out

Minho's heart shattered,a thousand times

No no no

This can't be true

"He said he left a letter for you....In your room"

Minho pulled the IV out of his hands,getting up to rush out while the doctor tried to stop him

But at that moment he couldn't see anyone,he pushed everyone who got on his way

Sitting in a cab,his hands trembled still not being able to process anything

How can his life turn upside down just in a day?

Minho ran to his room,mindlessly searching for the letter his parents mentioned

He ran up to his room,his hands shaking as he tried to search his drawers,finally finding the letter

"Han jisung,with love"

His vision became blurry as tears formed in his eyes,he gathered the courage to open the letter

"I still remember how my heart fluttered when I first saw you
From that moment I knew,it'll always beat for you

I'm not leaving you behind
I love you,but the fate for us isn't meant to be

But i remember how perfectly your hands fitted in mine
Our love that was passionately destined

When you miss me,place your hand on your heart
Close your eyes and listen carefully
You'll find the answer right there,
you'll find my love right there...

I wished to spend more time with you,but sometimes things don't go our way

You will always be the warmth that i try to find in winters
You will always be that one ice-cream i crave in summers
You will always be the flower that blooms in spring
You will always be the one I think about while I sing
To my soul,you will always be the one for me

I wish I could sing this song for you,
But I guess I won't be there for long

I wish to be the one you'd think about when its raining outside and you're sleeping deep
I wish you hold onto my memories

I wish you were mine to call,
I wish we could make it in this life
Well when I'm leaving you behind
I'll imagine us together,living happily ever after
We're holding hands,sitting while watching sunset
I'm singing the song i wrote you
You're dancing to the rhythm of it

I see a smile on your face
The smile that symbolizes peace
In that story
In that universe
We're happy together
In that place
Where there's no me and you
There's us

But as soon as I think about the reality
There will be just you
No me
No us
But if i have to make one last wish
And if god's somewhere out there
I hope in another life,We're meant to be
I hope, our body intertwines under the sheets we sleep
In another life
I hope,your heart still beats "

At this very moment,he felt shattered,his heart beating loudly,his throat is heavy,he feels nothing,he stares at the wall with no emotions,he's taken away from the reality until the realisation hits him

"Why?"

"What's the point of saving me,when I'll die every day without you..."

"Why did you do that?"

"How am I supposed to live without you?"

"Why....why han jisung"

His voice trembled,his body gave up on him

The boy became so close to minho that he can't imagine his life without him

Whenever he closed his eyes,he would see him,that pretty smile of his

Those hands when they wrapped around minho's

How can he live with the fact that he'll never get to hold him ever again?

The pieces of him fell apart and the only person who could've picked them up wasn't there anymore

The realisation hits minho again

I would never be able to hold jisung again

If he knew this was going to happen,he'd hold him tighter the last time....and never let go

5 years later

"Day 1661,I'm still here" minho placed his hands on his chest

"I sang the song for you....weird right,you were supposed to do that" minho chuckled,strumming the strings of the guitar that jisung always played on

His body swayed,his eyes closed

"You should let me go" jisung huffed

While minho moved his hands to caress his chin,but he couldn't touch him

"You know,you can't do that" jisung smiled politely

"Happy birthday...my jisung"

"You should go home now....it's too late"

"It's our time though"

"You've work tomorrow"

"Things can wait"

Minho smiled,the garden full of butterflies around him and the man he love stood in front of him

The universe where he's the happiest....where he's with jisung

Snapping out of his thoughts,he regained his consciousness

Looking around himself,he grunted slowly
...the smile on his face faded away with jisung,
His heart longing for the younger's touch..

He sat on the ground,body crumpled like some untidy sheets,full of sorrow and pain.

"I'd trade my life in every universe if I've to save yours in just this one"

The last words he heard from jisung roamed around in his head

The last time he felt the happiest was when jisung kissed him,when jisung sang for him

He didn't want to remember him like that

Why does it pain so much?

Never in his life he thought he'd crave for someone's presence this much

"I had so much left to say,I had so much left to do" his voice trembled

3 AM, he checked the time,gathering himself up he walked out of the door

Room 303
minsung,always and forever

The writing carved into the door he walked out from the vacant room that was just full of memories

it was their place...it always will be

The idea of love was sweet for both of them,
But the truth of it has always been bitter

The end