dying heart | minsung

Can't help falling in love with you

Minho

Walking back home,all I could think about was how his waist felt against my hands,i want to hold him until i can,how our body pressed against each other's ,I want to give up on my thoughts and just be with him,just be with him until I can...oh how soft and fragile he is,his soft smile when he looks at me,how he melts into my touch....

I feel astound when I feel this way,I always have been careful with each and every step I took in life but when I'm with him,I want to be reckless,I want to experience things that I never thought I would...

What is this feeling? I don't know,I've never felt this for someone before...but i know it feels good

I know i feel good when I'm around him

Desperation to kiss him,need to hold him,want to not let him go....it's killing me slowly

Well there's something else that's killing me too,my heart is slowly giving up on me.....

But can't I just stay with him until I can?
Without any promises...just him and I

Deciding to take a different path today i saw many cafe on the street

Maybe I could go here with jisung

Maybe I could go there with jisung

A pretty art store caught my eyes,I didn't know if he likes it or not...but wouldn't it be a great date?

Date?

What am I even thinking

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Jisung climbed up in his room,still processing what happened with minho..he was happy but yet confused,his feelings were all over the places but everything just stuck on minho,drifting to sleep slowly imagining how their body felt against each other...

He couldn't even concentrate on what he was doing at the office...well he couldn't care less about that.

"Jisung?" His dad's voice snapped him out of those thoughts,he stood up and looked down as an instinct

"These are some files,I need them done by today"

"Okay"

Jisung bowed as his father left the room,checking up on all the files..he felt as guilty as his father
He was so coward that he wasn't able to help,he was so coward that he was supporting his father in exploiting other people

Will he ever be able to stop this??

At first,he wanted to Just leave,not get into his matters but now he also wanted to help all the people who are promised but then they were destroyed

He didn't want to eat or live somewhere that's built on someone else's misery...

Can he just....run away??

But he knew his father will find him eventually and then it's him and the house will be his prison world.

He groaned as he checked the files and signed the cheque for payments

"If I can't help them through dad,I can atleast do it by myself...just don't let dad know right?"

He kept the files on the side and decided to figure this out afterwards..a smile appeared on his face as the time passed,he'd see minho soon.

"I completed these" jisung straightly said,his tone being low

"Keep them here"

"Dad?can I ask for some money?" His hands were shaking,voice trembled as he was about to lie to his father and if he gets to know,his father would probably kill him,it's money over anything else...