Teach me to love

The Dance Of Angels

Yoongi: "Why did you call me here?"

TAE: "I wanted to see you. I wanted to see if you’re okay."

For a moment, he looks at me, but it seems like he doesn't remember me.

It’s logical for him to forget. It was night, and we saw each other from a distance.

But why does this excuse I keep telling myself hurt so much?

Yoongi: "Since when do you care about what I do and how I am?"

TAE: "You're my little brother; how could I not care about you?"

He laughs, but that laugh hides more pain and a big 'why.

Yoongi: "Bullshit!"

JK: "Can you listen to him before blaming him for everything again?"

Yoongi: "I don’t want to. All of you are trying to fix something after it’s already ruined my life. When I needed you, you weren’t there. When… Now you're trying to piece together the shards of a broken mirror."

It hurts! Every word that leaves his lips carries only pain and an emptiness that no one can fill.

In his eyes, there is only darkness. He wants to die… He just wants to disappear.

Yoongi: "When I needed you, you weren’t by my side, so don’t try to push us into a place that no longer exists."

He grabs his bag and leaves.

Taehyung looks at him as if he wants to say so much, but he knows nothing will help.

JK: "With time, things will get better."

TAE: "He’s right! I’m trying to fix something that can’t be fixed."

JIMIN: "Sorry to interrupt, but who was that?"

TAE: "My little brother."

JIMIN: "You’re not getting along?"

JK: "Jimin!"

He looks at me with a serious and stern expression, as if scolding a small child.

JIMIN: "What? That boy is in so much pain that he now considers it normal and feels like he deserves it."

JK: "Do you know him?"

JIMIN: "If you know how to read a person’s soul through their eyes, then you can see everything."

Class ended.

My mind was constantly on him.

For the first time in my life, I could read someone’s soul and be scared.

I know that if I keep going like this, he’ll drag me into his darkness, and it will definitely destroy me.

All of this frightens me, but at the same time, I’m crazily eager to feel it with all my senses.

I go into the bathroom and lock the door. I splash water on my face, looking at myself in the mirror.

~I need to think clearly!~

The bathroom door opens. He comes out and stands beside me. He pulls down his hood and splashes water on his face while struggling to steady himself against the sink.

JIMIN: "Are you okay?"

He looks at me through the mirror and turns off the faucet.

He turns towards me, looking directly into my eyes.

I have no idea if I’ve been breathing this whole time, or if I can still control myself and not show that I’ve fallen for him.

Like a killer who’s in love with the idea of killing.

Like a madman who’s in love with the idea that now he can do whatever he wants because he’s “free.”

Yoongi: "What do you think?"

JIMIN: "It’s something more than just not being okay."

He touches my shoulders and turns me towards the mirror so that I can see both him and myself.

Yoongi: "You have life in you. You’re alive. Don’t be so easily drawn to the darkness."

JIMIN: "What if it’s not the darkness, but… you?"

Yoongi: "It’s exactly the same!"

He walks to the door, and just as he unlocks it, without turning to look at me, he says almost in a whisper, as if he didn’t want me to hear but was begging me to

Yoongi: "Your dance yesterday was like all the angels were dancing together."

He leaves, leaving me behind, trying not to let my heart fall in love with him.

He said not to be drawn to the darkness, but inside, he’s dying for me to do the opposite.